please click - Khairin at 5mths

Buka tanggal buka pintu, budak nakal memang gitu....And that happen to Khairin...

Not sure if its visible, the bruise under his left eye....Nie semua gara2 tak bleh duk diam...Cian anak mama...kan dah ada sourvenier.

It happened last week, when mama was trying to change his clothings. Gara2 terlalu menggeletis, he knocked on his swing....But budak mana tak menggeletis kan..kan..kan..I dun blame mama for sure, cos Khairin nie makin hyperactive ah...

So I kept applying this buah pala to the bruise....lucky now dh ok, if not mesti tak enchem masa raya hehehe...

Mama : "Mak datok...cepat nyer anak mama nie...Nie mesti kes tak sabar nak makan kuih raya"
Last sat, I just discovered my Kimi got one tooth oredi....Padanlah air liur asik over flow jer....
Son : Blabbering his mmmaaa...bbaaaa...and giggle all the way...Hes cheekiness menjadi jadi nowadays...

Just cant find the right time to update, as in no disturbance from anyone....

Time for recap, so bear for a long entry maybe.

Sat : 08.10.2005
Both me and husband working. Since husband only finished his work at 5pm, I decided that we break our fast at Pasir Ris. And yeah I didnt come at the wrong time, cos SIL cooked spagetti seafood and it was pasta mania as, I brought along marcaroni too. Cian husband, he didnt get to eat when I cooked during SIL & MIL visit, so I got to cook again, specially for my hubby tercayang....Hahaha...so the mentelz

Spent our time there and also visited FIL's SIL, who happen to be at husbands cousins place at the opposite blk. Pity mak yah, now she got to rely on walking stick and she teringin sgt nak tgk Khairin. Dari he was born till he got one tooth now.

Sun : 09.10.2005
Husband working again and this time it was his idea to break fast outside. Now I start to think, tk pernah sekali pun we buka at our own home. During weekdays, kalau nak buka kat rumah, alamat tak sempat lah nak masak, so we buka at mama's place. Weekend pulak, to inlaws or out for date.

Since its been months, since we last went Orchard, decided to give it a visit. Another motive was to explore the exersaucer that Mummy Nura had babe Nyla tried on. Kesukaan Khairin when I let him tried, but at that moment, husband and myself still considering to get it for him...*starts counting my notes*

So in the end we buka at Toa Payoh...of all places....

Mon : 10.10.2005
Nothing much happen, since Monday Blues virus is in me....Arrghh...

Tues : 11.10.2005
Went to Taka after work as finally we decided to go with the idea, so Khairin got his new play mate, the exersaucer. For mama & papa, dun tink many2 as long as Khairin is happy, nenek and bibik tk yg main passing parcel lagi, we are happy. One thing i pity mama, tangan dia bukan kuat like before so at least dun have to carry Khairin so much....Khairin getting more and more manja, nak berkepit jer....Bila org jln tinggalkan dia kejap mula, meraung....

Pics of Khairin in his new play mate, lum sempat di snap. Husband was busy assembling the parts and by the time it was done, it was time for buka. By the time nak jadi paparazzo to star tak menjadi tu, dia pun dh stone.....Halermak....

Ok for tdy, I have this feeling to eat something extra ordinary for buka, but I cant tink of what I want...My colleague leh ckp, it sounds like fear factor...Ish!!! Hope this isnt abt craving during pregnancy, lagipun tgh seram nie, Im late oredi....*help*...hahaha

Sat : Khairin was fetched by MIL&SIL at 4pm. Sempat gak I made marcaroni for them, mandikan Khairin and hug him as if theres no tomorrow. Felt really sad to part with him. No doubt sometimes Khairin sleep over at my mums place but the feeling lain, maybe because its nearer to my home, like this its gonna be at Pasir Ris. I sent them to the main road, kiss him again and once they are in the cab, I quickly walked away...and of a sudden I really missed him...

Sun : In the morning went to market with husband. Masak sotong santan. In the mid of cooking, husband phone rang. It was MIL and asking what time nak dtg amik Khairin...Husband and I was laughing...And replied nanti ah petang2, kasi ah chance sikit hehehe...But MIL kata eh anak kau kan...Lagipun dia asik nangis, mlm tido pun tk nyenyak.My husband said nantilah genapkan 24 jam confirm Khairin will stop his merengek. I tak sampai hati, I wanna grab my son at that moment gak. After lunch, we decided to leave for Pasir Ris. Took a bus there, yalah dh lama tau tak dating2 hehehe.

Saw my FIL with Khairin, dia bawak cucu dia jln2, hidup udara petang....So kita tanyer lah, betulke yg mak ckp, then he said nolah. Khairin slept at 8.oopm pastu midnight my SIL kasi susu, trus tido pai pagi....Alhamdulillah thats my boy. So stayed there till 8pm, SIL cooked beef beehoon..Lama seh tak makan. Overall Im happy with the whole situation. I dun have the half hearted feeling anymore if they wanna Khairin sleep there again in future. Like my mama said, " Jgn lokek2, tu pun keluarga dia jugak, nanti dh besar kalau dia tak rapat lagi susah"...

Mon : At work, as per normal, nothing great happened.

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Yesterday I was on leave and it was a trip to JB. It was Khairin's first trip there. Left home at 1430hrs, visited lotsa places, the tailor, the curtain shop, another tailor, shopping and last makan time...(tapi for sure not mine, but my dear mama, me cuma makan jer)

I recce for Khairin's milk and in Malaysia, its called the Similac Advance, from bith till 12mths. Theres two range, one with Iron and the other w/o. I decided to try one tin, kalau serasi, selamat sikit...hehe..Budget2.

Alhamdulillah he was very kwai, and I dint get to snap pictures as he was clinging to me throughout, unless when it was toilet visit or during makan time. It was so called ALL Girls outing, and theres only one male, my uncle, being kind to chauffeured us, kalau takde car, takkan ku bawa Khairin and definitely he will stay with his bibik.

Reached Singapore at 0030hrs and trus calling2 for the 2 men to wait downstairs. Decided to spent the night at mamas place as it was already too late and both me and husband working the next day.

Actually yesterday, my husband told me that MIL called to inform that SIL, nak "pinjam" Khairin, meaning today and tomorrow. I was not in the mood smlm, yalah penat oi...and it was continued this morning. Ntah eh, I am being half hearted, Im lying if I say, tak rasa apa2, but I got to be strong. Khairin pun part of them and I have to be equal. No wonder he was too manja with me smlm....

I told husband, I cuma risau what he might be fed down there. In front of me, they gave him grapes....mestilah Khairin suka nyonyot...manis kan, but I guess I'mjust being over protective against him.. Kalau sakit we the parents yg susah. Then I heard BIL kata, if anak dia, semua dia kasi, tkyah wait till the bb besar...he must be joking tapi kalau anak awak, awak buat lah eh...takmao involve anak kita hehehe...

Its not that I dun wana spent the night and Pasir Ris, but staying there meaning I have to put on my hijab all the way. Not complaining or find its a problem but jgn ckp me, even Khairin yg sometimes wear sleeveless tends to get cranky and will only diam when we make him topless. My MIL senang rasa sejuk.....So kita kena understand.

When kat saner, bila Khairin senyap ok lah, suka entertain but bila dia dh mula rimas, mengamuk, they pass to me...kenalah mama dia main peranan. So the conclusion, they will fetch Khairin after I balik keja and husband suggested if Khairin cries persistently, we shall fetch him home.

Reading Frina's entry, made me recall the incident that took place in early 2003. My parents involved in in hit & run accident @ the malaysia highway. Still remember vividly @ midnight, my parents got ready and waited for my aunt and uncle to fetch them. I was informed that they were going to KL, for some medical treatment for my aunty who were diagnosed with cervix cancer. Before they left, when I salam mama, I felt so different, a strange feeling struck me, I kissed her forehead and waved her goodbye from the kitchen's window. Immediately I did my sunat prayer with the doa still fresh in my mind, "Ya'Allah, tidak pernah hambaMu berperasaan sebegini, selamatkan segalanya, dan jauhkan sesiapa sajer terutama mama/papa ku dari segala musibah.

I cant sleep, I kept tossing and turning and managed to doze off. Suddenly I shouted the word "Yong Peng", woke up, istifar and told myself, its just a nightmare. Woke up at 6am, did my subuh prayer and I received a call from my another aunt, informing me that the car my parents were in met with an accident at Yong Peng. I felt extremely weak and immediately rushed to my sis placce to break the news to her. Tried calling papa but theres no connection. Managed to get hold of my aunt who were with them, she told me not to worry, as my mums condition was not serious. I dun give a damn, serious atau tidak, shes my mum, for sure I need the assurance in front of my eyes that she ok. Arrange for a transport to bring us to Batu Pahat Hospital. I just dun understand certain people, who can actually treat this like an outing....Bring the whole family...I just dun have the mood to say a thing.

During the journey, my mind was in total mess, I just kept saying my doa and hope the assurance that my aunt gave me was true. Due to the lateness, we selisih jln and decided to meet at my aunty's place in Johor. Upon seeing mama, I knew shes having internal injury. She felt so nausea and kept vomitting and these people just got the cheek to tell my mum, rest dulu and eat something. She threw up everything that she eat....Then I knew something is just not right. Mama being someone who is so humble, just kept quiet and goes with their rhythm. I mcm nak call ambulance, straight bring her back to Singapore.

At 3pm decided to leave JB, for my sis, my bro, me and dad, we insisted to be in the same car as her. Reached SGH A&E at 4.30pm and theres so many procedures that the situation really got on my nerves. Papa, my aunty and uncle just received outpatient treatment. Mama was pushed to ward and the surgeon came and told us, why did we took long to come...Shes in critical stage. They had to postpone other operations and mama have to be operated by that night jugak. Initially we tot it affects her arm only, but the doc saw that her stomach was infected. They got to op her stomach before they can do the arm.

Ya'ALLAH, I cried and cried cos I dun wanna lose my mum...Shes the only person I have in this world.....Shes my everyting.....At that moment, while waiting for the surgery, it reflected on hw bad I was, how stubborn I was when shes there for me...I long for her hug and warmth of her love, I want to hug her and make her happier than before. Please Allah give me another chance to be filial daughter to her.....

I dun wana go home, I want to be with her. For two times in my life, I dun get to see my 2 lurve ones during their last breathe and I dun want it to happen again. Alhamdulillah everything done and the surgery that suppose to take 2 hrs dragged to 8 hrs ending at 4am. Mama was pushed to the Intensive Care Unit and it hurts me even more to see all the tubes and metals objects on her....She was asleep, I kept talking to her, ask for her forgiveness and spending 3 days at ICU, she was transfered to normal ward....Hw happy I was and Im grateful to Allah for giving my mama the strength to pull through....

How much I love my mama....is how I want to be love by my son and future children Insya'ALLAH.

Tagged Again

Alamak first day of the week dh kena perah otak?? Terima kasih to sweet Syazah....Oh dlm baik awak sabo kita balik eh...*biasa dia* hehehe..

Orait beta do it fast...nak kena cari mangsa lagik...

Seven things that (will) scare me
1) Cockroaches
2) Dogs
3) Open sea
4) The last breadth of my lurve ones
5) Pati ikan haruan polleny
6) Pool of blood
7) Train stop for long time in tunnel

Seven things I like the most
1) Vacations (no matter long/short)
2) Precious moments with my 2 guys
3) "Rape" my son heheh
4) My L.V. bag (bought with my first bonus)
5) Pastas
6) Shopping ; with my mama, papa and husband paying
7) Suprises

Seven most important things in my room
1) My bed (takde bantal pun takpe)
2) My wedding potrait on the wall
3) Aircon/kipas
4) Clock with date
5) T.V.
6) Bel'Air
7) Big bb bottle piggy bank (all coins will be contributed there at the end of the day)

Seven random facts about me
1) Jovial
2) Kepala batu
3) Expressive
4) So....difficult to give a smile
5) Can forgive but will never forget
6) Not easily influenced by peoples comment on another individual (i lurve to be with them b4 judging them)
7) Too sensitive with dust (sinus will start and will sneeze out loud like nobody's business)

Seven things I plan to do before I die
1) Repent
2) Settle all debts
3) Be a SAHM
4) Be a good individual to all my status
5) Provide good environment for education and moral for my son and future children insya'ALLAH
6)To mecca for haj/umrah with my family insya'ALLAH
7) To take care of my husband and kids in any conditions they may be and make them the happiest people on earth

Seven things I can do
1) Cook (nak pikat husband melalui perutnya)
2) Spend hours in front of my pc
3) "Ukur jalan" hehehe...walk and walk w/o rasa penat (kalau dh penat...hubby lah mengubatnya)
4) Travelling to Perak in coach when I was 6mths preggy
5) Go for thrilling rides
6) Jump from the bus when I was 8tmhs preggy (giler punyer budak, but must make sure got other passengers alighting after me)
7) Bake cookies for raya (ada nak tempah??)

Seven things I cant do
1) Drive (PHOBIA)
2) Sleep w/o husband giving me a goodnite kiss (kalau dia duty lain criter lerr...)
3) Be a good cook like my mama
4) Be a blood donor
5) Hide my feelings
6) Reading manuals (if novels or mags OK)
7) Spend the nite alone when hubby on duty though nw I have Khairin to accompany

Seven words I say the most
1) Ah?
2) Apa jer
3) Bedek
4) Hola
5) Eh??
6) Luv u
7) Bean..bean (coz my son lurves giving us his Mr Beans look)

Seven celeb crushes
1) Ako Mustapha
2) Ari Wibowo
3) Brad Pitt
4) Anuar Zain
5) Alan Smith
6) Ariel (Peter Pan)
7) Jon Bon Jovi

Seven people I'll love to see doing this...
1) madamde
2) Girlnani
3) Hunny
4) Nura
5) Nunah
6) Fiza
7) Haslina

K gals if u already been tagged before i forward, just ignore...:)

P/s to syazah..Now then i can continue my lunch....hehehe...

A new SKIN finally

Jeng..Jeng...Yes!!! Finally its done. Been trying to find time to change the skin, cos this template was emailed to me long2 ago....Hehe..Im impressed with the layout...Thanks to this sweet individual....*hugs*

So now its done...Alamak 0033 hrs liao!!! Better go to bed now...How nice my hubby and kimi now in their wonderland.....

Zzzzz......

Ive been tagged

Received this from her.....

3 things about me

1) Im a jovial lady....always believe we need to have the companion of others to make our life more lifely

2) I dont fall in love easily and once I lurve that person, I will love him till my last breath....that is my husband....

3) I always put others priority before me...sometimes it affects my relation with hubby....cos I have this mindset...If you think you are in trouble, there are others who have bigger trouble than you....*i must learn to be more attentive to my own family*

i shall pass this to....

* Ida*

*Syazah*

*Nura*

*Haneymum*

*Ezayu*

My Poor Boy

Yesterday I was on urgent leave....Due to the reason of my precious little Khairin. On Monday evening when I picked him up from mama's place, Narti told me that Khairin was crying most of the time and she said, his body was warm. Quickly checked on him...I tink hes having fever. Since mama was not @ hm, Narti doesnt give him any medicines. She was worried if my face was to turn one kind...Nah!! its ok, we never know that Khairin would get his fever on that day.

Checked his temperature, but it just shows 36.5. Waited for mama and off we went home. He wasnt crying, wasnt cranky, he just lay down quietly and soon dozed off. I gave him the fever syrup every 4hrly.

At 5.30, I heard husband calling his friend informing that hes not going to work as Khairin is having high fever....

??Quickly woke up and touched Khairin's forehead, Ya'Allah, its burning hot. Sponge him and call the bb clinic hotline. Dr Foo advised us to continue sponging him and bring Khairin to her clinic. Initially I wanted to go work, but upon seeing him like that, I just couldnt bear to leave him under the care of husband alone.

Smsed my colleague and decided to cancel my half day leave for (today) and will be on urgent leave instead. The leave was applied for his 2nd dose of 5 in 1. Got ready and made our way to the clinic by 8.30am. Now he started crying his heart out. Luckily bof of us were ard, if not tak taulah, mcm maner nak react.

Had his temperature taken and it showed 39.5....My poor sweetheart, my heart really ached when I see u in pain. First on the list, Ahmad Nur Khairin. He was restless in Dr Foo's room and doesnt co-operate when she wanted to see his throat. She assured me its cold and told me to give his medicines on time. Out from the room, he was so kwai...no more crying...Kids they are smart kan?? Bila nak jumpa doc mcm nak rak di buatnya. We waited for a while as I need to enquire abt their 5 in 1 jab.

I see that my annual leave are getting lesser and nanti by time raya, no more leaves left...Ni yg tk best. I planned to get his jab done at Dr Foo's clinic at least I can go during the weekend or after work....

And now Im at work, my worries were reduced when on the way to mama's place, Khairin kept giggling and talking to himself...No more the "ayam berak kapur" look....Thats my boy.....Hes back to his normal self.....Luv u darling....*kiss kiss*

Cant be BOTHERED

Just dun understand the whole situation now. I got so many things in my mind. Career switch or bear with it... My patience is reaching its limit oredi. Im just thinking how long more I can go through this. Fact is the environment Im in...Working environment to be precise. Smoke everywhere...and this is the factor that has caused my head to go damage. Smoking den u can call it here.

I dun know who to blame?? Myself or these smokers..Yes I earn my monthly salary here but does it mean my health will be at risk?? I just dont know how to explain but whenever Im being sandwich between my career and my superior my thoughts go haywire. And also i dun understand WHY some human beings are so damn inconsiderate and never have bit of respect. If before this, U know where to proceed to lit ur cigarette, y not now?? And y must U add on to the air pollution that has already been polluted??

And y are so jealous of me keep on going leave or even MC. Got the cheek to ask, "The boss allow to go on MC every week eh?" Bloody idiotic moron....If Im sick, it means Im really sick...Im not an MC Queen for your info....What u tink i suka2 go clinic and pretend to have diarrhoea or would say, "Yes doc, Im having migraine." but doesnt even now what is migraine....If u dont know what is migraine, dun even think of having it....Kept piciting ur head, for what?? to seek attention or sympathy....Boleh blah ah...

Am i sensitive?? I know im not, but people think otherwise....As far I know, im someone flexible....I dun boot lick to please people, its up to u to judge me but dun judge me on others comments, be with me, be my friend then judge me....but if u hapen to provoke me......thats it....

If you want people to respect you, prove to them that u ought to be respected and u will earn the respect.

...Barbeque...

Saturday - left home at 12noon. Headed to pasir ris home. Mil and sils were all waiting to see my kimi hehehe...Didnt visited mum last week as she was away to Kuala Lumpur to visit my elder sil. And Iza just came back from the US. Spent the whole afternoon with them and sempat follow them to jemputan at Tampines. By 6.30, all of us headed to Pasir Ris Park for my dearest sis barbeque. Let the pictures do the talking....click ->Barbeque at Pasir Ris UOB Bungalow
Only managed to get these shots and the sad news is that rainwater gets into my darling Finepix F440...Oh no!!! Sorry dear husband, as it was partly my fault.....It rained suddenly and we were all busy sheltering ourselves when I totally forgot abt the digicam that I had left in the tent. So I guess water must have got through it.....Lucky enough we had bought the extended warranty and will bring it to the shop for repair.....

Well since khairin had turn 4months, I had started to give him his cereals.....Though its more advisable to feed by spoon, sometimes when things get too stress up I would use the bottle. He enjoys it more and wont get irritated....Khairin darling, mama wanna feed u sayang....whenever I have the time, I wanna avoid the bottle, but I cant bear to see u crying and I got no choice but to give u through bottle....maybe its still early, I will definitely keep on trying...->Khairin turns 4month

He turns 4

Thanks to Ida and Rina......Yup i will take care and mamam the obats....

Today khairin turns 4 mths. So fast!! Looking at his progress daily, weekly and monthly, Im contented with it. But at same time, Im beginning to miss the days when he was just out from my womb. His tiny body, so red and fragile, cradling him on my arms and not to forget those bedungs moment.

What SIL said is true. This was when I showed her that khairin can turn his body fully. She said not too fast boy..we will miss those moments when u only know about sleeping with one position.

And as for me, the most thing that Im gonna miss is his baby's smell with the uweeks etc...its gonna disappear bit by bit. Then it will be haprak time...hehehe.

Ytdy, I was covered with MC. It was on weds evening, I really felt soo weak. Did my consultation and told the doc what I had experienced. She told me its some kind of virus and Im running a temperature up and down. Advise me to monitor my condition and to take my temperature hourly and avoid heavy foods for the time being. No sharing of utensils and food...Sakit apa nie???

She gave me the triggering factors that I have to avoid and to eat my medicines regularly if I do not want my condition to worsen.

Alrite here are pictures of my sweetheart that was captured this morning...

...My HEAD!!!...

Immediately half an hr after lunch yesterday, I felt soooo sick. My head was spinning, stomach was uneasy. Felt nausea and in the end I threw up all my lunch. There goes my nasi campur with ayam lemak cili padi, kangkung and fish cake. My Oh My!!! Whats happening here...Cant I enjoy my lunch???

The pain was getting more and more excruciating. My head was like being compressed. Took a nap but it didnt went away coz I dun have the medications in hand and even if I had, I need to rest in a dark quiet room, mana nak cari tu spot. I was bearing the pain that was unbearable. Didnt take any panadol too cos of my degilzness. In the end, took a cab home, but the driver was so meddlesome and I kept telling him to just leave me alone as I was having bad headache but he continued his merabans. Kept saying he is soooo sian. E'eh makin rezeki tak masuk lerrrr...I told him, I'm more sian listening to your nonsense with my abt to explode head.

During the journey I wanted t throw up again and this time Balm didnt work for me. I guess it was a sudden migraine attack that had left me for months. Y must u come again??

Went back to mums place and minta tlg to massage and pull the hair for my urat2 kepala, the sounds were so syiok. Applied limau nipis and hey it doesnt work too.....What should I do nw?? Kept telling husband but he was too tired with his exam today that I got to treat myself. I swallowed two panadols and cried to sleep. Waked by Khairin's cry for his feed, I thought the pain had went away and what I went thru was just a nightmare, but within seconds it strike again.

Woke up in the mrng, washed my head, and now Im @ work. Dont wanna take MC, just got no mood to wait at the polyclinic. Reason?? My condition will just gonna get worst. Dahlah tu nie company pun tak accept private clinic mc, mcm anak gamen pulak!!!

While writing this I am still tolerating the pain from my head.......AaarrgHHH!!!

...Weekend...

Like she said 48hours passed so fast....Belum puas enjoy the weekend, its Monday again. Aargghh...malasnya nak bangun but what to do.....Motivate myself.....Got to work!!!

Nothing much happened during the weekend except for shopping with mama, papa, husband and khairin. Window shopping for me actually....Destination?? Geylang...Though i work at that area but just seem doesnt have the time to really window shop at ease. Yalah time lunch, beli makan, pastu cepat2 kena balik office. So sian...

Managed to recce kains...untuk apa?? raya...Tapi ada kah tailor lagi nak amik tempahan??*scratch my head* Stop at one of this shop saw baju kurung dh siap, purple colour..wink2 at husband...He got no comment, so i will just get it for raya. But tgh tunggu dulu, mana tau ada colour menarik coming....

Sunday, whole day at home, mums not cooking so apa lagi.....zooomm rumah mama. Can smell she cooked asam pedas ikan duri....Yummy....Went there alone and got what i wanted.....Hehehe... After lunch it was just lazing ard session at home as husband got to do revision for his theory on Tuesday.....

What a bored weekend, but Im looking forward for this weekend....Got a bungalow...Sewa da....Meaning....Im gonna have barbeque......Yes!!! Hope this weekend gets better.

...T.G.I.F.

Alhamdulillah the day of the week has come..Yippe...Tomorrow my off saturday. Today got dating ;) with my husband lah saper lagi....takkan scandal kot!!! Kwang...kwang...kwang...

The date, we are going for movie, The Maid. It was me the gatal woman, to date husband, cos it been long since we last caught a movie in the cinema. Mula2 bila nak ajak tu fikir berkali kali cos takut husband turn down as lately hes been too tired and stress with the course that he is in now...Cian husband, tuesday got exam some more.

Alhamdulillah too he doesnt turn me down. To our little Ahmad Nur Khairin, Dun worry sweetheart, you will be in great care of nenek, and for sure will be enjoying ur own movies with the three kiddos. Mama & Papa will be back as soon as we can to fetch you....*muah*

To all my blog readers, friends, have a great weekend....Bubbye...

...TOLERATE...

Tolerable - endurable
Tolerance - willingness or ability
Tolerant - disposed to tolerate others / patient of
Tolerate - allow the existence or occurance of w/o authoriatative interference / be able to take or undergo without harm

Why I was on MC?? Due to the factors above. I cant tolerate, the tolerant of the tolerance as its not tolerable. I also dun know what the hell I merepeks. So if tak faham buat donno ye...My blog kan??

Its wat I have been feeling lately. Ya'Allah only u know what am I thinking now. Working in small firm this is the problem. Working with malays there are the consequences. Im not pointing to all malay organisations out there but this is just what I feel. Its true indeed when people say, "Dah bagus tu ada kerja". Yes and I really bersyukur with the job and post I have now. But money cant buy ppls sweat and time. Dun even say abt money, down here theres no OT claim available.

Straight for the past week, my energy is being perah sekering tidak, and it will happen after 5.30pm. Eh apa are these pest blind or what?? I got new responsibility as a mum. Lately leave office by 7-7.15, journey home really kills me. Upon reaching at mums place, khairin wld be sleeping, then either i eat at mums place or tapao. Mum would ask am i too bz?? Yalah i sent khairin by 7.20am, then after 12hrs of care service masih lum amik2, i pun understand and i sometimes joke with mama, " Kalau childcare agaknya anak i dh kena tunggu depan gate"...Hahaha.

She doesnt mind & at least my dad will get the chance to see khairin cuma dia pun fikir jugak, balik, tido then mrng kuar lagi. Sometimes she offered me to stay there for the nite but I cant. Ntahlah maybe due to the reason, I want to be independent and tau erti hidup berkeluarga. Going home late means no time for my dear khairin. When Im free hes sleeping, when its time for his feeds in the wee hrs, Im like a zombie.

So decided to take MC on tuesday. I really took the chance, played and entertained him the whole day. How I miss him. Husband understands my plight and told me if i cant handle, then let him handle sorang, means lesser time for the family if i decides to resign....No!!! Thats the last resort. Will never leave work to satisfy myself, it will just make matters worst. But sometimes I do envy friends who are SAHM but for me not at the moment. Husband told me to give him about another 3 yrs time..Bila itu time dtg baru leh ckp, for now lips are seal.

Hey people have u ever cried in public and felt lost?? Yup it happened to me and Im really afraid of going thru such depression.....Smsed husband but at that moment he cant be with me as he needs to drive....Its ok. Istifar, and think of Ahmad Nur Khairin, insya'allah it reduces the -ve tots.

..Its him again...

Suppose to get this entry updated yesterday or day before but just couldnt find the time . Monday was bz @ work and yesterday was on MC. Reason?? Hmm...nanti kita share.

Back to wat Im supposed to update...

Since we were at Pasir Ris home @ that time, mati2 told husband that nak tgk the race jugak. Ard 7pm khairin got restless and I got to make him topless again *as if dia suka sgt bertopless at his nyai's home* My bil cma home and was disappointed to see this budak kecik sleeping like sammi buddha hehehe.... He insisted husband to wake khairin up, yalah if he volunteers to attend to khairin's angin.

Told bil, just give him half an hr tto rest. And yes!! khairin woke up and in the nick of time before the race start. Member ngotok tgk...mata mcm buah longan. Ish!!! Nevermind darling as long as u be kwai...hehe if not stress u.

My Kimi RaikkONon

...Tulang...

Yummie, got my tulang yesterday. Ive got the craving to eat tulang lately but just couldnt get the chance. People kept saying baru anak satu.....Well wat the problem ha?? Ku punyer suka ah...

So that day I bought this garlic baguette from Delifrance and offered to my nephew.

Me : "Ilham nak??"
Ilham : *shook his head*
Me : Quite surprised as he loves to eat. "Knp tak nak?, Ilham kenyang eh?"
Ilham : "Tu hari Ilham dh makan tulang dgn roti nie, Papa beli 2 satu rumah bawah, satu rumah nenek" (well actually my sis was staying just one floor down from my mums place)
Me : "What Ilham makan tulang!! Bila?? OOooo.. tak ajak mano eh? Lain kali mano beli taknak kasi ham.
Ilham : Guilty face and ran towards the kitchen....

Told my mum and sis what happened and well I was just joking with this cute nephew of mine. So due to that the cravings makin meluap luap. So after work yesterday, met husband at Lavender Mrt Station and made our way to Beach Road Food Centre. Woi!!! byk kedai Deen Biasa...Apa lagi while husband was waiting for satay, I went over to buy my tulangs. This man gave me namecard and told me order then antar rumah pun boleh....Hmmm...ask him abt the delivery charge and told me Yishun will cost $12.00. Dlm hati, wow good offer. Cos it will be the same if i were to go and buy myself. The cab fare home will cost ard there. So husband...*be on ur guard*...mana tau ader jer org ketuk pintu untuk hantar tulang....

Went back to my mums place. Laid the food and tinggal tunggu my sis jer for the baguette. Enjoyed myself and this niece of mine who is a piranha for tulang kept aiming for the som2. Pantang lepa, the som2 will be gone from my plate *evil look*

Takpe lah, buat apa nak argue2, shes just a kiddo. But kena jaga2 gak cos its heaty. After finished our meal, decided to go home. Khairin, we decided to leave behind as yesterday nite lotsa bakar2, husband and I were having this not rite feeling to bring khairin back. Cos initially I told husband, mum and sis abt kak oni's doter after I read her blog. Then on TGIF yesterday ada trailer for the movie THE MAID. Mama wants to jaga khairin for the nite. So off we go.

On our way home, people were still doing their prayers and burning here and there. Nak jalan pun kena hati2. All of a sudden my migraine came back. Due to all these asaps. The whole day at work our next door neighbour were burning and the smoke can be smelt rite to my nose...kepala dh mula bengal.

Once reached home, washed my feet, clean myself and I was totally flat. Husband knew that I was having migraine and he didnt disturb me for anything. Sorry darling that u got to make ur own coffee...:-(

Talkative

Since khairin is enjoying his sleep now, take the chance to update.

At 8.30 am khairin was crying. Decided to check on him and I saw both his nostrils were half covered. He was having a blocked nose. Must be passed ard virus that started from husband. I was thinking of any baby clinic that operates on Sunday. Luckily there is one somewhere near my area and we have to be there by 12noon. So quickly bathed him, get ourselves ready and woke hubby up.

Waited for cab, satu bayang pun tak nampak, so decided to take a bus. Reached at almost 11.15am and was 3rd in q. He now weighs 6.5kg.Tgh tunggu turn dia buat kek plak. Quickly cleaned him up and straight to the doctors room. Was examined and we were asked lotsa questions, this budak bams, was so kepo, nak join the conversation till the doctor say, I talked u also want to talk....dgn muka selamba he just smiled and continued his baby language.

Got nose drop, running nose, and fever syrup and she gave sample pack for the cereal. Told us to try and give him when he turns 4 mth. Ok, then proceed home. Gave his medicines and off he went to sleep. At ard 3pm, get ready again, this time to her place.

First time meeting her, nice person to get to know to. Sorry ya rina if i seems to be so kwai...heheh..segan u. But indeed it was pleasant to meet u sekeluarga. Makanan sedap, masak sendiri eh?? Sorry that i got leave early, initially nak gie wedding reception but we decided to cancel the plan as I just received the news of my fathers aunty fell at jb the day before.

Orait thats all for now....Gonna give my sweetheart his medicine...

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve

...Photos...

As promised here are the few shots taken during the celebration @ yishun.

...The Celebration...

The anniversary celebration wasnt that bad. Well no mushy2 hehehe...cos I was shocked to hear from this someone..."Jaga2 pat2 anniversary nie lah, selalu accident"...Hmm...hehehe, shared the joke with hubby and he told me, next time joke balik," Now cannot nanti kena saman + points hahaha..." well its the time of the month. Initially I was quite worried and stress, coz it came late and missed one cycle. We are not ready for another one yet, but if its a gift from Him, we will accept. But now kena tepis saner sini....*wink at hubby*

We didnt went out earlier coz aiya, of all days mr flu and friends decided to give me a visit. Start counting...1, 2, 3, wow its been long since I last got sick...And it has to be on my anniversary, kacau mood ajer...No chance to take mc cos Im on leave on wednesday....I took a day leave due to some family issue, but my god my leave was wasted man. It was being postponed to Friday. No way that I will take leave again....Lucky mum was understanding enough but on my part I feel bad....

Back to how my day was spent. At 5pm, hati nie dh semangat nak tgk celebrate @ yishun. Its a day for remembrance. So off we went out at ard 6. Sent khairin to mum place, not that I wanna lepas tgn tau, mum knows how much I love to watch the jet pass and fireworks and volunteered to look after khairin cos she doesnt want khairin to get restless there...Yeah with all the crowds and hot weather and also the berdentam dentum.

Went with hubby, sis, kanak2 and narti. It had a great atmosphere. Can see the excitement at everyones face. Manage to catch the jet pass and my niece who is 2 plus was so takut, and in my heart lucky khairin didnt follow.. Watched the fireworks and it was indeed the best celebration I ever seen cos this time the theres fireworks and 4 different places too. Hope for the coming years its gonna be this kinda celebration...

And dh kelam kabut sgt, sampai terpula nak bawak dgcam. But managed to get few shots from my handphone. Will get the pics uploaded soon. Meanwhile heres how my sweetheart looked on our anniversary day...For more photos please click 2nd Anniversary
















Khairin with the gift from aunty ayu...

...Anniversary Mood...

Here comes the day.

Happy 40th bdae to Singapore..

Whereby the nation are out there to celebrate Singapore Independence, we do not want to be excluded hahaha!!! Thats the reason why we chose this date. Its holds lots of memories to Singaporeans and hope to us too.













Happy 2nd anniversary to my beloved husband, Mohd Khalid Ahmad. It was this date in 2003, i was solemnised to a wonderful man whom I had just got to know to. To me how long or short the time frame was, its just numbers, that we will stop counting when we decided not to go further. Alhamdulillah, been husband & wife for 2 years had really thought us that, mariage is not as easy as youngsters out there may think.

It was this date too in 2004, that I found myself pregnant. Syukur alhamdulillah, our prayers were answered and thank you Allah for giving us the chance and opportunity to become parent. Insya'ALLAH will we carry out the amanah our best with iman & taqwa. How fast time went, now Ahmad Nur Khairin b Md Khalid is already 3months and 6days to be exact.





























At this moment, what more could I ask for except for the well being of family and my little sweethear especially. Ya'Allah berkatilah rumahtangga ku bersama suami & zuriat kami. Lindungilah kami dari segala kesusahan dan fitnah.

To my hubby thanks for all you had done for me. Accepting me for who I am, never looked into my past and satu i love very much....tak lokek hehehe....May our marriage last and be stronger each day. Thanks for lurving me.

...My Kimi...

...My Kimi...

...My Kimi...yes thats the title, must be wondering what the hack it is...:) Well its actually what i call my sweetheart sometimes. Alias name given by my hubby the day we reveived this gift from my SIL and BIL. Its Maclaren Techno XT. And the name is adopted from Kimi Raikkonen who drives Maclaren car in F1. Hahaha...Tapi takkan nak copy fully kan, so we change it to Kimi RaikkoNon...Konon2 pun jadilah.

Yesterday marked my little sweetheart's 3rd month since out from my womb. Wow!! that was fast man, and looking at him everyday, attending to his cries and entertaining him never tires me. No matter how tired and stress I may be, his cheeky smile really boost my energy..Tq sweetheart.

He went for his jab ytdy and it looked so pitiful when the nurse poked the needle to his right thigh. Before that, when the nurse was getting the jab ready I was talking to him...he was so jovial but his face turned red and he stared at me..."Im sorry darling, if only I could take ur place..." But hey he was quiet when passed him to hubby. He started to coo...oo...aaahh...Must be complaining rite??...Never mind lah dear as long as u are ok. He's now 6.3kg and 53cm. Kush semangat, bab tu tangan beta lenguh hehehe...

Went back to my mums place as I wanted to get some things from causeway pt. Decided not to bring him as Im afraid he may get cranky and may develop fever. Made sure he asleep before I left him. By 6pm brought him back, quite happy with his reaction. I was worried in case the fever may give him a visit at night..I even took his temperature every hr just in case. Alhamdulillah all went well.

By 10 he slept soundly and woke up at 4am for his milk. Normally during his feeds in the early morning after he finishes his milk, i would just make him lay on his cot and leaves him by himself, he would doze off on his own. Perut dh kenyang apa lagi nak kan?? Hehehe...Told him, mama & papa need to sleep, as we are working later....He just smile at me...Cair man!!! Lagi2 now, with so little hair....

Time for a Change

Time for a Change

Hie friends at this moment, I do not want to publish any post or pics here. Due to the reason that I am really curious abt how ppl got to know my past. Well whatever that had happened before are over and if its something very sensitive that could affect my marriage & life now I better be on my guard. Blogging world has introduced me to many friends and at the moment where I am trying get use to it, Im afraid that I got to put a STOP. I will try to get myself familiarise with other blogging methods, that requires access, so that I could monitor the status of my blog.

To the individual (you know who u r, whereas I dun even know u) who knows so much of my past without me revealing to anyone and assure me that I should not worry too much, please respect my privacy which I believe you too want others to respect YOUR OWN PRIVACY.

Finally

Finally

After godeh sana sini, I managed to get it done. Pic taken in the early morning, as early as 0530hrs when he is doing his business..."Yak yak"....Tried to captured when he was really meneran but only managed to get this.

This pic is one of my favourite. Kerana tangan nyer yg gebu & pipi nyer yg bams.

On sat was really busy with house shifting. Started at ard 4pm and I was really tired. Mana dgn Khairin, dgn barang, fuyoh headache...Things were cleared only at ard 8.30pm, pindah satu bilik ke satu rumah pun berejam, all because of my wardrobe "Minta ampun, orang2 yg angkat" and they are my hubby's buddies...Sampai i overheard, one of them said, Monday MC lah...OMG....Sorry ya guys...We really thank all of you for the help given. Since we knew that its not appropriate to give a treat immediately, I just prepared simple dishes. But we really owe those a treat. Insya'Allah soon..hehehe. We stayed till almost 11pm, to unpack, didnt spend the nite there, instead my FIL, tolong tgk2kan.

Sunday morning went to Geylang. Bought some things for the kenduri. Reached home, mum decided to cook at my place, oklah jugak at least, I can continue to clear the stuffs. One whole day spent at my house + mini celebration for my dearest papa's 54th birthday. And now Im too tired that I can sleep....Aiyo!!!!Help!!!Help!!!

...No Entry...

...No Entry...

Wow...been out from the blogging world for quite some time. Well firstly, been busy, and only today hubby back to work after 3 weeks of mc. So since he was ard, quite hard to log in and update coz i got to take care of two babies at same time hehehe...Alhamdulillah the op went well for him cuma tulah kesian he cant carry khairin too much. Khairin pulak mcm tau jer...he kept crying and bila hubby dukung sekejap he was really quiet...anak papa betul.

k lah i cant be long coz i need to pack. tomorrow dah nak angkat barang. barang satu bilik jer dah menimbun apa lagi kalau pindah satu rumah....Penat tul.

To those who received my invitations hope to see u, yg tak dpt indah invite, really apologise. maybe will do another open house during hari raya.

* i cant seem to upload khairins photo to my entry. so for now setakat sempat tukar the pic above jer.

...Hep B 2nd Jap...

...Hep B 2nd Jap...

Reached polyclinic at 2.20pm. Waited for turn and Khairin was all the way sleeping from home. Then at 2.35, our turn, went in, questions session and next his weight. Just what Im waiting for. Put him on the scale and it shows 4.4kg. Patutlah lenguh tangan cek bila dukung hehehe...

Then he cried, ya!! time for susu ler. Nurse nie pun asik tertanyer2, budak nie yg haus hehe..She told me to feed him first while she get the injection ready. So once ready i pulled the bottle and trus poke....He cried but alhamdulillah just a while after i pujuk2, saying, Khairin strong boy...And he goes...Aaahhh...hehehe So the mentel.

Went out finish the milk and off we go.

Sorry I cant update his pics yet cos I seem to have problem uploading photo to blog...Will try A.S.A.P.

...On surgery...

...On surgery...

Yesterday hubby went to SGH for his X-ray review. He was advised to go for a minor op, should say more to scope. He smsed me and I was shocked to hear that. Thought it would be nothing serious and will only do with theraphy. So his op will be on June 17. Luckily by that time my pantang pun dah over at least leh be with him while being treated.

Initially hubby was reluctant to go for the op coz hes afraid it might affect his PES status. He need to maintain his PES status in order not to affect his next stage of his career. Told the doctor that he would be safe only after September. But doctor assure him that this op would not affect his PES status. Memanglah rezeki tu ada di mana2, but in times like this if he cant continue his service with the Armed Forces, its not easy looking for a new job outside, especially now we have an extra mouth to feed, more responsibility awaits.

Ya'Allah, kau lindungilah suamiku.

Tukar Bulan

Tukar Bulan

Nowadays Khairin keeps crying at night. Mcm kena pukul pulak. Dukung duduk salah, berdiri salah semua tak kena. One thing about my little boy nie, suka jalan2...My mum kata ikut me coz when I was pregnant mmg I suka jln2, still travel from Yishun to Paya Lebar and work till few days before I gave birth. Ah sekarang kena jln2 sambil dodoikan Khairin. Yerlah, I told mum, kata kena bykkan jln then lebih mudah melahirkan, kalau ikutkan hati mmg malas tapi takut nanti labour susah hehehe...Ntahlah eh kepercayaan orang tua dulu2.

Mum pun kata time ni lah mmg betul2 menguji kesabaran. Dah nak abis hari, bb mmg suka merengek, dah nak tukar bulan. Lagipun I notice Khairin kalau buang air besar, semangat dah beberapa hari nie.

Memang betul menguji kesabaran, and I let it out to hubby. I really brush him yesterday hahaha!!!(adalah criter kalau tak takkan I nak cari pasal) pai I boycot never took care of Khairin the whole night. He was the one who attended, sambil tgk bola, Liverpool and AC Milan. Seriously I was knocked out yesterday, I never heard Khairin cried, only at 0630 I realised that hubby was so like cartoon, Khairin kept crying and he need to bath and get ready for work. He just gave Khairin the pacifier, apa lagi member bangun then I saw milk already prepared, let Khairin drank and soon he was back to sleep.

Walked hubby to the door and for me back to sleep. Bangun kul 0830, bathed him, and sampai sekarang, I didnt took any nap, for Khairin hes sleeping, sometimes I really hope that he could sleep like this thruout the night, but I know it would never be...Its ok, just for a few months of endurance.

...Meet u at last...Uncle Faried

...Meet u at last...Uncle Faried

Yesterday marks a memorable day for me and Khairin. Well, my in-laws came over, including my bro-in-law. He was so excited to see Khairin coz he was working shift and the next day after Khairin's birth he was outstationed to Japan. BIL was like a paparazzi. Khairin pun mcm tau jer, the moment they came, he was half awake, they managed to be entertained with his memek muka.

They stayed quite long and I should say the presence of Khairin changes a number of things. Me & inlaws are more closer, and also first time BIL talked to me. Eventhough its not the chit chatting type, at least there was a communication. Terlalu xcited sampai really forgotten to snap photos with my digicam...aiseyman!!!! Hubby pun sama.

Before that hubby's buddy came satu keluarga including his mum. I was stunned when she was so kecoh of why i still have not shave Khairin's hair...and explained mesti buat tu...ni....Common, I know what needs to be done, I still have parent and parent in laws. I believe nawa'itu yg penting, and nak buat nie semua mestilah kena tgk kemampuan diri sendiri, takkan nak minta sponsor...kalau nak aqiqah pun...i nak qiqah dgn apa?? Pening kepala....

MIL & FIL was aware about this and they share the same pendapat as me. Lagipun anak lelaki nie lebih..Insya'ALLAH bila dah ada rezeki tu, of course I will do for Khairin. Saper taknak buat awal2....Bab cukur rambut insya'ALLAH dlm masa terdekat ni...buat sekali dgn my house warming...

Mission Alone

Mission Alone

Yesterday was the first day spent the nite without hubby since Khairin's birth. Hubby was on Guard Duty...*sob* Look forward for the evening, only then Khairin can feel the presence of his papa. Khairin was crying badly yesterday, cari papa dia mungkin. I was quite worried it may drag to his sleeping hours, coz there would be no one to help prepare his milk.....Mum offered to let Khairin sleep with her, but I said its ok...its gonna be a lesson for me...Though its gonna be a bit tough I believe I can do it.

Alhamdulillah he didn't cry much. Just wake up for his feeds and back to sleep..Good boy...

Orait thats for now...gonna entertain my little prince...

Have a great weekend friends....

As Requested

As Requested

Sorry not much pics in the meantime, coz tgk Khairin hari2 ZZzzzz jer. Pose sama. But will get more of his pics soon.

Photos of Ahmad Nur Khairin

2 WEEKS BACK

2 WEEKS BACK

Wow!!! Such a long time away from the blogging world. Sorry ya no updates. I'm just adjusting & adapting to my new environment. MOTHERHOOD. Kinda simple word but its really not that easy when we step into the world. Sleepless nites, attenting to Khairin's need of feeds. Alhamdulillah so far I'm able to pull thru, definitely with the help of family members and not forgetting my beloved husband. Though himself not in good condition, he still did his responsibilities as a father. Alrite for now, I'm taking this opportunity to recap what happened 2 weeks back - that is my labour, which is still vivid in my mind, as if it just took place yesterday.

30.04.2005 - I started to feel uneasy, which turns out to be a false alarm. I had initially discussed with hubby, if by 05th May (my next appt) i dun have the signs of labour, I wanna request for induce. Frankly its not becos of the date, its just that I will reach my 40 weeks of pregnancy by then and I need to think of my maternity leave which I had start on 28.04.2005. Delays means I'm wasting my leave :(

01.05.2005 - While watching 'Aleeya Maisara' @ suria, I started to feel menstral cramps. Macam nak terbagi dua badan & pinggang. I was shocked to see blood stains. Informed hubby and in my mind is it the time?? Oh!! No!! Told mama and she rendam the akar fatimah and within short time, it blooms fully. By that time, I was concentrating on my contration intervals, its an hourly. Sempat gie northpoint after maghrib, reached home at 2045hrs, watched Lefthanded but with no concentration. Hubby wants me to go hospital but i was stubborn, can still maintain. When the contraction was 20mins apart, i called the labour ward and was informed to wait for 5mins interval as first child labour normally takes longer time. Hah?? And once it was only 10 mins apart, i called again and another staff told me if im worried I can come down and if cervix not dilated, I have to go home. So @ 2315hrs, took my shower, got ready, hubby informed mama and off we went to hospital with mama & papa. Sempat gie rumah kakak, jalan mcm model hehehe masih leh maintain cool, tapi dlm hati hanya DIA yg mengetahui.

Reached hospital at midnight, and I was welcome by the first staff who answered my call. She asked me why i come?? Eh!! I dun care. I told her, I'm in pain especially my waist area, u wanna me wait for 5 mins interval?? She brought me to the assessment room and I was interogated. Then at 0030hrs, M.O. came and seluk....Ouch!! I was 5cm dilated. They told me that I will be in the labour wardand will deliver anytime today. My heartbeat was beating very faster. My parents came to assessment room, I salam, minta maaf and kiss my parents.

Walked to the labour ward got changed and rest. Up to 0300 hrs, the gas mask was my new found friend and by 0330 hrs I told hubby that I wanna request pethidine. The midwifes were happy to see my cervix opening progress. By 0515hrs my gynae came, they told me to push when i feel the contraction. I was already high and hubby kept whispering to me to istifar and zikir byk2, jgn lepas. But there was one pt. I raised my voice to my gynae...Member tgh high beb, tk sedar apa dia merepek. But my gynae gave me an encouragement that i will neva forget. "Well Noraindah, its all up to you. The decision is yours. It's like running a marathon, you are almost to the finishing line, are u giving up?? One correct push with your full strength, you will be a mum. Or you want to continue bear the pain, we shall all just wait for you. Staying on like this will only make things worse, you may take hours of labour" I turned to hubby, he kissed my forehead and told me, one push ayang, a strong one!! I held hid hsnd tight and by the 3rd push, my prince is out. Alhamdulillah. Hubby azankan, managed to feed him with kurma, madu and air zam2...(sounds kiasu). Hubby was thankful to ALLAH, cos both of us are safe. I whispered to hubby, Happy birthday in advance dear, that is your 28th bdae present, the Gift of Life...Hubby was speechless.

Stitching time and like Frina said, the stitching was nothing compared to the delivery experience. Rested at labour ward, but I couldnt close my eyes, everything was too wonderful. I told hubby to catch some sleep cos he didnt sleep the whole night. After breakfast, which i didnt ate much was wheeled to ward.

Thank you ALLAH, thank you for the gift, thank you for making my baby a May baby.

...Already on Leave...

...Already on Leave...

Been quiet lately...The reason, TIRED!!!

Dearest friends out there, I had decided to start my maternity leave early by a week before my EDD. I really hope its a right decision as im not willing to take any risk. On Wednesday evening, after work, i took a cab from work to Northpoint to get something from Cold Storage. Hubby wasnt abe to fetch as he got to finish up his report. All of a sudden, i felt my body cold, starting from the tip of my nose. Apart form that my hips started to feel the pinch. From there decided to take a cab home.

I rested in my room and hubby was shocked to feel my body cold. I got up from bed, walked to the door of my mums room, and i almost fell as i was limping to bear the hip pain. Mum istifar sekuat tidak, yerlah i pun panic. Mum gosokkan minyak and it ease the pain. I couldnt sleep soundly and went to toilet almost every hour. Just make sure that i hold on to anything during walking. I didnt want to bother hub from his sleep as he sacrifices a lot and been getting less sleeps nowadays due to me "merengek" hahahah!!!

Woke him up in the morning, and he still pull his comforter over his body.

Me : "I will take my shower first"
Hubby : "U still going to work, in this kinda situation"
Me : "Yes, i will be going with sis like usual"
Hubby : " Ya, but once at ct hall u are all alone"
Me : (Just kept shut, i know hes worried)
Hubby : (Grabbed his towel and head to the toilet)

Prepared his breakfast and i decided to take urgent leave. But at the same time, i was telling myself, its not healthy to take urgent leave and mc/s. Hub suggested that i start my maternity leave. Have my rest and look forward for my labour. Its ok to start work earlier too, the main thing, me and bb are safe.

So here i am, at home, doing all the necessary preparations. I called my boss in the morning, explaining to him and i just hope he can understand.

Friends out there, do pray for me, for a smooth delivery. Will get u guys updated about my condition.

...39 weeks...

...39 weeks...

Now got the time to update!! Phew!!!! Was so damn busy since mrng. So busy comforting myself with bb movements as well. Kept making my tummy bulging in and out. Yesterdays appointment with gynae was ok. My gynae is just as me, very excited looking forward for the birth of this little boy. Another week had passed and im due to deliver anytime, as bb already engaged. My gynae was like..."OOiii. cepatnya"...but too bad next mon gonna be a public holiday, means she cant see me, so she fixed an appointment for me on my E.D.D. itself.

Told me, if by my E.D.D. i still have not give birth, its normal to go beyong 41+10 days. (Tertelan air liur ku hahaha!!!) Seriously i dun tink that i am able to go thru it coz, i really can feel tired oredi. Kalau boleh nak lahirkan dia sekarang jugak. But again my gynae has a feeling that i am able to experience it soon, as the way i explain to her about wat i experience, are good signs....Syukur Alhamdulillah if its gonna turn rite.

Nowadays to make myself go work also very super duper lazy. Last stage in pregnancy, flu and cough decided to give me a visit. Was so irritate by my throat, and blocked nose.

After appointment, went straight home. Mum as if knew that i wasnt well, she cooked, fishball (ikan tenggiri)..Yummie...Trus had my lunch, did my kewajipan, telan my ubats and trus to wonderland. I was really knocked out, and at ard 5pm mum said she wanna go out with sis and the kiddos. I was lazy in the first place, apa tak masih stoink!!! but then i decided to follow. Hubby stayed alone at home. So one of the reason, nak permudahkan process bersalin.

One by one, my friends dh start on maternity leave.....OOOOhhhh im so jealous u know....I still have 3.5 days to go b4 i say sayonara.....Lermak for 3 mths jer. Haiya!!!

...Ops!!!...

...Ops!!!...

Woke up in the morning, shocked to see brown discharge. It was a lot, panic, i talked to bb, make sure that hes ok, and alhamdulillah, he kicked me. Told hubby abt it and he suggested that i rest at home, told sis and she said if theres no pain, dun go hospital. Now i am at work :)

Mistake jugak coz my last chkup i didnt get to see my gynae so i wasnt aware if dah dilate. So now i got to wait got to wait for my next appointment on monday. They discharge still kuar but i dun feel any pain, so i guess steady jerlah, just make sure my bb moves, no blood discharge. Bila dah betul2 sakit baru leh gie hospital.

Only now the pain that i have is at my kelengkang, its like something terselit pat situ, must be bb's head, kept pushing down. Jalan pun dah macam cartoon.

...37 weeks....

...37 weeks...

Alhamdulillah managed to reach my 37 weeks of pregnancy. Roughly 2 more weeks to go before my E.D.D. Reached hospital at 9.30 (appointment at 9.20). Register, took bp, urine test and weight, within 2 weeks naik 1.3kg?? Hmm....Total dah 14+ kg gained. Returned from urine test, ada message, at gynaes door, "Out for surgery"....Alamak!!! Apa lagi, the staff nurse told us to go for breakfast first and wait for her call. I diverted my number to hubby's and pas makan, realised got 2 missed calls from my gynaes room. Apa tak suamiku ni, put silent. I quickly called back and was informed my gynae was there earlier but now dah back to OT. Give her ard 1/2 an hour. 45 mins past, sleepy dah!!! Then they doesnt wanna waste more time, see M.O. instead. I was like, M.O. nie lady or man?? I need to ask abt my piles....

Soon it was my turn, lucky it was a lady, but shes like a selenger. Why i said so?? I mention abt my piles coz i told my gynae and she wanna take a look at it, so she said :-

Doc : "U willing to let me take a look at your piles?"
Me : "Sure"
Doc :" Its just a small one, gotta eat more fruits and make sure stools are soft, may get worse after delivery"
Doc : "Any more questions u wanna ask, abt your pregnancy?"
Me : "Oh ya, sometimes i got this bursting feeling in my stomach"
Doc : "Bursting??" (Looked blurr)
Me : "Ya, its like balloons "pop" kinda sound"
Doc : "No lah, its actually baby kicking"
Me : (more blurr than her, so far of course i can differentiate the way my darling is kicking me)
Me : "Ok then"

The staff nurse was just smiling at me.

Out i went. Hubby was looking for me coz he needed to answer natures call while i was waiting for my turn. Ask me this and that, and i told him, u settle the rest, i nak gie toilet plak. So my next appointment in one week time.

Went to Marina, to settle CitiBank bills, then to Marina Square, fuyoh, kita mcm orang jakun, its totally revamp, sesat2 kat saner. Since i was too tired, decided to wait for the free shuttle service back to Ct Hall. I wanted to go Metro, buy my bb cot. Hahah!!! Dun get shock friends, cuma, that time we havent decided. Headed to Causeway Pt., it will be delivered in one week time. Really hope bb wont be out earlier than that. Mum was not agreeable that i buy things early, yalah i faham. Takperlah, nanti nenek and datuk dia nak sponsor hahah!! So once i deliver safely Insya'Allah, my mum said, she will get the rest of the things.

Takpelah, im not so eager to get the things yet, my eagerness is just to safely bring my baby to see the world and to hear his first cry.

I also have decided to start my leave on the 03rd May 2005. Means end of this month will be my last day. Hopefully i can make it, Insya'Allah...

...Waist....

...Waist...

Since ytdy evening, i got this pain ard my waist. It was so painful that i cant sit/stand properly. Another symptom is here. Even got difficulty to sleep. Hubby insisted that i go polyclinic. Woke up to get ready for work, hubby was reluctant to let me go work, tapi i told him, this might be my last sat working before maternity leave, so takperlah a little sacrifice is nothing. Ceh!! pekerja mithali.

Nolah, i just find that, i still wanna go work, though ada bits of uncomfort. Duduk rumah i will just find myself more tired coz my nieces and nephew love to have me ard. Rajin melayan. But now, dah slacken, kadang2 tu once reached home, i spent most of time in my room, lazing ard.

Tdy, got no plans yet, tot nak ajak hubby keluar, tapi tak sure if he agrees to the idea coz i told him that my waist still in pain. Hai!!! Apa nak buat eh?? Or i might just rest first then make myself down to Al'Maarif after Maghrib. At least dapat attend sekali for the Maulud this year would be great.

...False Alarm...But...

...False Alarm...But...

Ytdy's entry was like kanchiong mood hehehe, apa tak?? Ada benda terkeluar tak terperanjat beruk!!! After work smlm sempat met hubby at clementi, coz i just haven't decide whether to go to labour ward for checkup or not. The contraction pain tak rasa lagi, its just false alarm & only the other issue was bothering me. The moment i saw hubby, i told him, i tak nak gie lah, we just monitor.

Told mum, kena interrogate ler...Hehehe, kept asking me did i neran kuat2?....Seriously i never, alamat kalau susah, berejamlah i pat dlm bilik termengung...(sorry kalau putuskan selera) hahaha!!!

Decided to enquire with labour ward coz, it seemed that the issue made me lose my focus on everything, they told me it might be piles, most pregnant woman would experience it, and advise me if it doest hurt, and doesnt give me any discomfort, i should just leave it. If pains felt, i could visit my GP or make my way down to O&G tomorrow.

Upon hearing that i was quite relieved, at least there was assurance that it was not that serious.

Never mengeluh!!! Its part of the experience, and i find all these experiences beautiful, especially when u get special treatment and attention from ur loved ones.

To my husband, parents, sis, friends, sorry for making all of you alarm. I really appreciate your concerns. Muuahzzz

...Oh...O

...Oh...O

I got this urge to pass motion 2-3 times journey to toilet but, nothing comes out. Then while cleaning myself td, i felt some flesh underneath.. Wonder if its piles, but not painful.

Call the labour ward, to ask and they told me since its first child, go to labour ward and let the doctor check on me....Oh no!!..Well still monitoring, if the pain still persist, i will go after work. Harap2 tak de apa2.

...My Luck...

...My Luck...

Ytdy Evening :-

Biasalah i got to stand bila naik train at Paya Lebar, then at Kallang this school gal alighted. I moved forward, eh suddenly this young cinone woman yg baru naik frm Kallang trus duduk, buat muka bingit and played game on hp...I was like takpe lah, nanti kau pregnant baru kau tau!! Yang sebelah menyebelah biasalah, buat2 tidolah, tak nampaklah, bla..bla..bla..Then at lavender i managed to sit, then at City Hall, got this nyonya, naik and stood in front of cinone woman. She didnt even offer her seat, "Orang mcm nie pun masih idup pat dunia". I stood up and offer my seat to this nyonya. She hesitated but i said, "Takpe aunty, wa suda mau turun, lu duduk, nanti jatuh", i gave the woman and those near her a hard stare, but all these jerks got no perasaan, still muka bingai cum bongok.

This morning my perut mengulas, nak bangun pun susah, could feel the pain when i try to move and walk. Told hub, if the pain persist, then i might be taking U/L. He told me dun force myself if i really cant. Left home ard 7.50am and manage to board the 8.15am train. Sis kept asking ok that. I said ya cuma baby kept stretching and my stomach feels so tight.

Reached kallang then wait for bus. Saw the bus no 51 and i was alone to hail. This driver slowed down and went near the bus stop, but......he didnt stop man!!! EH?? If he didnt see me hailing, kenapa slow down. Dahlah semua orang at the bus stop get to see how stupid i looked. Dalam hati macam2 sumpah seranah dah ku keluarkan. Hehehe...Ya'ALLAH, ampunkanlah hambaMu ini, sesungguhnya aku tidak sengaja.

Apa lagi, i emailed SBS Transit the moment i reached work. Actually still pending one complain, tapi tak sampai seminggu, matter lum settle, he made me complain again.

I know its not healthy lah complain sana sini, sikit2 nak complain but he was damn rude. Adakah patut that day, i havent step on the bus steps, he moved the vehicle, walaupun slow, but the bus was still moving and after 1 step he pressed on the accelerator. Dia ingat nie pat M'sia ke, nak naik bus kena stunt2. Then at one bus stop, a Chinese lady (sexy you) wanted to board the bus, he could actually stop directly in front of her, and wait till she get seated before he moved off. How bias he is!!

If im not pregnant, neva mind, but in situation like this, i get this kinda experience, naik badi nak naik bus lagi.

Btw friends, wanna ask, labour pains must be accompany by brownish or blood discharge is it?? Im curious to know. Please email me, to share the experience. TQ.

...Ouch...

...Ouch...

After work yesterday went to Bishan, normal routine got to pay our reno loan at HSBC. Since was at that area, decided to go Seiyu for a while, setakat 'shopping tingkap' jer. Saw this pram selling at 139, whereas the identical one at kiddy palace cost 199. But only one colour available, its maroon/black. Not bad gak the colour. My sis helped me recce at raffles place and she saw orange/cream, that cost 199 before 20%. Hmm..now tgh stresskan kepala otak, cant decide on which one to buy. Then walked past the Body Shop, i saw this salesgirl, terjengkik-jengkik, terjengok-jengok pat my hubby, dlm hati eh buta ke, ada orang yg perut jln dulu sebelah dia, pimpin tangan some more...Apa lagi amik chance lah, nyakat hubby,

Me : "Eh tu kawan u ke?"
Hubby : "Bukanlah"
Me : "Kenapa tgk u mcm tu sekali?"
Hubby : "Ntah, tapi confirm kalau abg senyum, mesti cancel punyer"
Me : (Laughing sekuat tidak, everybody was looking at me).
Hubby : " Dah lamer seh tak dengar u ketawa gini kuat, ada rhythm plak tu"
Me : (Grab his arm trus jln, blow beb)

Yesterday night, i got this pain at that area again but this time, masya'allah, i really cant bear it. I cried and hub was alarm seeing me like that. Kept asking me, am i ok?? and i kept assuring him that im really ok. Kept on kumat kamit ayat kursi, alhamdulillah the pain went off after some time.

Woke up in the morning, made coffee for hub and get him the leftover bubur kacang(durian). Luckily i remembered to keep it in the fridge coz i knew this hubby of mine suka nah makan bubur kacang especially if it comes out directly from the fridge, makan dgn roti some more...(nie apa kes nie??) Lantaklah as long as he is happy, tgk dia makan i lagi happy. Nak jadikan dia papa bear...kwang..kwang...kwang...

For lunch i had mee hoon hongkong and now im starting to feel sleepy, in a while confirm K.O. I notice my appetite is increasing daily, mcm nie leh boyak, tat day dah kena warning dah...Apa peduli, as long as i know when to start work out, sure start punyer...Hehehe...As if!!!

...36 weeks - 9 months...

...36 weeks - 9 months...

Cant stop rubbing my eyes...Hahaha!!! Im already in my 36weeks today...Fast man. Next week gonna be my next appointment and my EDD soon. Alamak!!!

In fact im starting to get impatient, to have the first glimpse of my baby. Wonder how he would be, but im afraid of being over excited too. Insya'allah everything gonna be fine. Whateva it is, you are still Khalindah's baby. Its only at times i really hope to make it on 050505, its just a nice and unique date, but mcm terasa tak kesampaian. Asalkan selamat melahirkan and dilahirkan itu sudah mencukupi. Nothing more than that im asking for at this moment. After birth baru datang yg lain2.

Nowadays i get very sleepy especially after lunch. Then yesterday followed mum to market, hahah!! kan dah ckp pembawaan budak, suka i gie pasar, then reached home almost 1pm. Washed my feet, then "bum", hub saw me...

hub : "aik!! tido??"
me : "a'ah....lagipun i baca about pregnancy, at this stage, must take lotsa afternoon nap/rest, and practise breathing techniques"
hub : "oh tu mcm kah?"
me : (malas nak layan terus terbantut....tak tido pun)

half an hr later...after lunch, haik!! dia yg flat...ewah2....saper yg ngandung nie...."sratch my head"

...Restless...

...Restless...

Yesterday evening met hubby at clementi mrt station nak gie Sheng Siong. Initially tot of at Wdls Checkpt nyer but after much tots decided to just go Marsiling jer. Alighted from the train, i felt pain, at that sensitive area again, berdenyut denyut as if pins kept poking sesuka hati. Jalan pun dah mcm orang mabuk. Hubby told me to forget about our plan but i told him, takperlah since dah kat sini just go. Degilz & Kepala batu punya budak!!

Hey!! But my beloved baby was co-operative, the pain tak terasa pun biler tgh syiok2 shop. Pembawaan budak agaknya hehehe. Managed to get fishes, squids, veggies, etc. Sempat lak tu hub nak gie recce dia nyer work stuffs so i just sat one corner, tak kuasa nak membontot.

Reached home mum was surprised that i venture pai Sheng Siong, alah sekali sekala jer lagipun bayar niat dulu sebelum kena 'kurung'. Get dinner ready and immediately after eating rice, i continued with Oreo, hmmm..and went in to check on hub, member tgh brain storm nak kena abiskan project..."Kesian dia" Dah bosan pat bilik i went out and open the fridge *wink* *wink* i saw durian roll....Apa lagi, kebas ah hehehe....Makan sorang sambil berbual dgn mum. Went back to my room, i didnt realised that i slept for a while, and at 11.30, i complain to hub that im hungry and wana eat some fish crackers...Being sweet darling of mine, abg gorengkan keropok ikan for me....So touched!!! Yg i pulak made tea for us...Mum mesti fikiran 2 budak nie tak reti nak tido ke...

After that barulah tuan puteri buyong nie leh tido but....jeng..jeng...jeng...The pain came back, I was very restless and uneasy with the pains, kept giving Mr. Toilet a visit and yg kuar is just a drop or two. Alamak stress nyer...dah lah seksa nak bangun dari katil mcm nak nangis.

I woke up in the morning and realise hub was not ard, i force myself up and drag my leg outside, abg tgh makan sarapan, felt bad for not able to do it for him, he said that he doesnt want to disturb my sleep as hes aware of how difficult i was to make myself comfortable during sleeping. I rush for the toilet coz of a sudden i felt like vomitting and my head spinning, and he told me not to go work if my condition worsen. I monitor myself and knew that i could still work but told myself, just take my time hehehe...mcm ada share dgn tu company plak.

So now here i am at work but hip pains decided to give me a visit. I could not walk properly and feel so painful when i try to lift up my leg. One after another...are these signs of labour??

So Fast

So Fast

Was 10 mins late for my appointment...Hahaha..Tak pernah cik kak nie sampai awal...Tapi at least ok gak not so pack ytdy. Pai jer gie dptkan q no pas tu gie 7eleven. It wasnt tt long waiting for my turn only 3 persons before me so just grab a sandwich to alas perut...tapi bukan mak yong nie yg lapar tapi bapak budak hehehe...I kacau2 jer, minta sikit!!!

I told my gynae abt the excruciating pain that i felt the nite before, it was like pins poking underneath. She took a look and inform me as long as i dun feel sensational pains when trying to pass urine, its not seriuos though it swell. Baby's head dah quite low and thats y i could feel the pain as its engaged and getting ready for labour....So my next appointment in 2 weeks time - 37weeks....Yeah2....nak dekat tgk muka baby....All pains and serams aside...just cant wait to see my prince...Ya ya o....

It was raining heavily and the shuttle service was full with ppl, nak jalan tak larat, so took a cab to mrt station, then went straight to Sun Plaza. Time really flies fast, reached home ard 2.30, then just rest and helped hubby with his project. Naik kerror mata dia satu hari tgk pc.....Now he nows how tired my pair of eye gets after a day at work.

Mum and me was looking forward for the evening coz our new maid is coming. Sis got to fetched her alone as nobody can accompany her. First impression was ok, can see shes humble tapi too early to judge but i just hope its gonna be true. My little nieces was already getting close to her, bagus jugaklah kalau takut pun problem.

But the unhappy thing is that the last maid complained to my aunts maid abt working with us...Ewah2...But i just told mum, bagus jugak dia balik i dun really fancy her way of working...Sweet talk jer lebih. I know its not good talking abt ppl lagi2 time i pregnant, but there are so many things about her that i find not appropriate.

Kira2 dlm 3 weeks without maid in the house, made us do our own things bila dah datang, mcm terlupa pulak...Tapi takperlah, maner yg kita leh buat sendiri, we just do it, takkan nak berkira, penat gak seh kalau sorang kena buat semua benda.

Counting...

Counting

Today marks my beloved mum 47th bdae....Happy Birthday mama...Decided to surprise mum with cake and bouquet of flower that will be send to my aunts place coz my cousin is getting engage today. Really got no choice coz i was so confused of timings, so play safe just send there.

I will be on leave on monday for my 35weeks gynae appointment and a week after gonna start counting days pulak. Already start to feel pains, but for sure its just minor contractions. Seriously was asking myself..when is really the time to go labour ward!!! Haiyo...Coz sometimes i feel like *yak yak* but nothing comes out after spending a long time in the toilet. Takut salah neran lagi satu criter.

Ok i need to rush home, pity hubby got to clear the room all by himself dahlah tangan sakit still got to do it...But im lucky to marry hubby, he isnt calculative though he clears most of the time...But one thing, just leave him alone in the room and everything settle, just cook and make coffee for him....

To all have a great weekend.....