I think this entry is misleading cos, I have friends who ask for my new number....

Sorry for the tak clear information. Aniways Im still using my old number...Thanks!!!

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As much as I feel sad over the lost of my handphone, I know I got to face the reality. Its gone and will never return.

On Monday after work, hub suggested that I meet him at Sun Plaza. He brought me to the M1 shop, with one motive in mind, get myself a replacement phone. I wasnt agreeable but he insisted. I told him, on one condition. Choose ur own model and decide for yourself. He was reluctant alamak in my heart dah mcm filim industan plak!!!..After a long time, I managed to pester him saying yes.

And for that I got to sign up for another 2 yrs contract with the service provider. Hmm....

So here is the replacement....

ps : to friends to have my number, please sms me so that Im able to update my phone book. Thanks!!

Nothing much happened during the weekend, cos I am still under the "DO NOT DISTURB" mode...about my handphone that went missing....

At work on Friday hub called me and asked whether I received any news from Comfort Cab and when I replied no, he immediately said, like that got to find oredi...I was like huh!! find!! cari!! nak cari kat mana I asked him, he said, kedai lah. In my heart I was like, No! No! dear...dun have to go to that extend.

At night, upon seeing hub at mums place, he kissed my forehead and knew that the issue was troubling me and tried to cheer myself up. I kept letting out tears and in fact during dinner when I looked at his face, auto ni airmata meleleh...Tulen hor, not main-main one.

He kept comforting me, and told me not to tink so much, its gone. I told him, it just the way i received it, its my first bdae prezzie from him and tat makes thing worst. If I had bought it with my own money I believed Im not this affected.

We went home and I was totally in buzzed off mode and went straight to bed. I saw him surfing M1 webbie but seriously Im not interested.

Morning came I got myself ready for work. The journey was so damn bored w/o handphone. In fact another reason of y i forgot abt my handphone, I was too engrossed with reading...Memoirs of A Geisha. So now seeing this book makes my heart pinched, ada jugak terfikir nak buang *lol* but common Im still sane. Sesungguhnya buku tak bersalah. So now dlm train no sms = reading

After work went back to my mums place, cos Khairin was there. I waited for hub to come, before eating lunch together with him. After lunch while I was browsing the classified section, I asked him this

Me : "Nak go sepang"...
Him : Silent w/o any hok/hek.
Me : "Sepang...sepang...minta kena sepak. Kena sepak nak!!. Dahlah handphone ilang, ckp byk pulak"
Him : Smiling at my own question and answer...."I tak ckp eh"
Me : "Yeah I know....berpijak di bumi nyata"*lol*

Sunday:

Cooked simplest dish, and straight to mil place. Spent the whole day there and I was having terrible headache.

All this because of ear infection, toothache

ear infection = korek telinga like nobody's business
toothache = makan gula-gula byk sgt

handphone ilang = my own carelessness

Have a great week peepz....

63 days its with me and its gone.

Its true I have to understand sometimes its just not my rezeki, but the scenario of how I get it is very sentimental to me.

My hub isnt the romantic type who pleases me with surprise, to be frank, he never bothers to even get a card for important dates like my bdae, wedding anniversary, apa lagi gifts.

After I confide with him, hes now able to understand. For me, I dun need him to shower me with expensive gifts, but a simple wish will do, it could really make me on a cloud nine.

And it was a total different this year round during my birthday, I just couldnt believe he would get me something that was out of my thought. He said, since he got extra incentives, he dun mind, but it cant be always. I understand what he meant by that.

That "thing" hold too much memories of me, hub and our beloved son, and due to my own carelessness, I lost it. If not of a message from my colleague I tink it will still be in my bag all along the journey.

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First of all welcome the returning of her....As guessed people miss your entries, so blog more since u go more time in hand liao.

On Monday evening Khairin got sudden fever visit, all of a sudden he became so lembik tak de mood for anything. Kept being cranky. Is he teething?? Im also not that sure, cos no signs of that except for one tooth yg ada and nickname pak mat gigi sebatang...lol

Or he trying to walk?? Watever it is darling, I just want you to be back to your normal self, its heartbreaking seeing you with the ayam berak kapoor look.

And, was it a blessing that he developed his fever? Cos on Monday itself, I received a call, arrangement for interview the next day. As much as I wanted to leave and find a new job, the feel takut is there. I dun know why....I know what I want, but sometimes that is the barrier of me moving forward. Address given and hub assisted me to find out the exact location. I was like...alamak mcm tempat jin kena tendang hehehe

I was still unsure till the next morning, I looked at Khairin and his temperature went slight down. I then decided to take time off, to be with him in the morning and by 9am, I left the house and told him, "Pray for mama sayang....its for our future" He kept crying and doesnt want to let go of me, but I know I must be firm....just go never turn back.

I reached the place, and from the first impression, I fell in lurve with it, from the environment and theres something that just attracts me....and in fact till today, I keep tinking but I know I cant pin on high hopes, cos the best person wins.

Ya'allah, pada saat ini aku dipersimpangan antara dua keinginan, dan aku tau walaupun tidak mustahil jika kedua permintaan ini dimakbulkan, aku redha akan apa saja pemberian rezeki mu kepada ku...Amin

To one and only Shahrina Ahmad





Happy Bdae to u..
Happy Bdae to u...
Happy Bdae to Rina....
Happy Bdae to u.....

*hugs and kisses*

May u have an enjoyable day, blessed with great health & wealth...Have fun and stay sweet always...

Im back with updates...

Been busy lately and with the Lazy bum bum mode, semua tak jln hehe...

Wkends was boring for me, cos the same routine will be over and over again. Sometimes I asked myself, can I skip Sats and Suns cos thats when or where arguments may step in.

Like many other working moms, Im in this dilemma as in, wkends it will be a trip to inlaws, kalau tak pegi nanti kecik hati. Kalau pegi, tersampai lambat, pun kena. So my conclusion, we will still go, kalau sampai lambat, I still made it a point to go....Let them play with Khairin and get in touch with any latest issues.

Alhamdulillah he doesnt get cranky anymore...Hes getting more and more familiar with the faces of hubs side.

Saturday
Decided to bring him for his D.A. at Ooi Baby & Child Clinic. I was worried that he may end up taking nis nap and will get to his takdemood.com character. Nights before, I kept explaining to him that I shall bring to Dr Foo's cos she need to test him. Member ni plak, org ckp dr nak test, dia ingat nak kasi itu enjet, badan mula hangat...Chet!!!

So we left home at around 10.30, and there was a crowd. I pun kanchong spider, takut dia tido, cos its his nap time. He started to get cranky and wants to roam satu clinic, alamak!! awak tu comel loteh, sekali org langgar, terbaring trus nanti....notty momma. He was so the menggeliat mcm belut, till hub gave up and pass him to me....Mak jugak!!

Then it was his turn...greeted Dr Foo and test begun. Alhamdulillah he passed his test and off we go. Naik cab trus lepak. We went back to mums place, since hub was hungry, nak tunggu kita masak, nampaknya late lunch lah. So had our lunch there, sempat bapak budak tido kejap then back to our home and quickly settle mana yg patut and off to Pasir Ris.

After maghrib, we went to geylang, cos fil was helping with a relative at a stall. So pendek kata our day was just mkn...I didnt eat much cos I ate quite huge portion of nasi briyani that sil cooked. By 10, we decided to make our move.

Sunday
Out for jemputan at Ubi...And guess wat, I forgot to bring along the prezzie for Alisha....Cos I thought nak singgah her place, if shes not around, just leave t at the gate....Mak nenek of me lah!! Mcm maner bleh lupa, padahal ingat punyer ingat...SO sorry alisha, dun worry I get it mailed to you....

After that went to hubs cousins place at hougang....New baby gal born...Nur Iqma...nice name, mata bulat, idung mancung...ans Khairin was too engrossed with the little cutie pie that he takblehdukdiam.com, panjat sana panjat sini, just to get glimpse of the babe, when I was feeding, and dengan pantas he taps the gals head.....Mak datok, brutalnya!!! Baby no 2...i tink got to wait first.....hehe

Friends close to me, must be anxiously waiting for my dinner update plus snaps of pics that I had planned. But Im really sorry that, something happened last min and it really made me lost mood.

Well to some people, maybe its a small matter or some kind of joke but hey for me its something really serious and it affects my pride.

It all happened when I just finished my Asar prayer, when I changed from telekung to tudung, and he opened the curtain...I was stunned. Instead of apoligising and close the curtain back, he just stood there and compliment. I quickly put on my hijab and went out. I was seriously disappointed and I lost all focus and concentration.

I thought I was safe, safe to pray cos all along this never happened, and this was the first time...He got the cheek to bring it up and told me to remove my hijab. He infact debated saying, he tot there was no one or I may be sleeping. But still, I told him off, if the curtain is draw, must be a lady inside....dun care whether shes sleeping or wat, u got no right to open....cos if theres no one inside the room, takkan curtain tu kita tutup kan...Use ur brain lah!!!

Throughout the journey, to dinner, I kept laughing with my colleagues but only GOD knows what was in my mind...I was affected by the whole issue and upon seeing hub at tampines, Khairin was sleeping but he woke up a while later and started to get cranky. We proceeded to the restaurant and Khairin started to cry like hell. People started to look at me one kind, as if I dun know how to pacify him....I did what I could, I said prayers in his ear, and one minute he was smiliing and quiet, but the next minute he wailed again.

It really tested my patience that he keep throwing his bottle and body from my arm. Till hub came out and took him over. He totally went silent in hubs arm. I was sad, and lately Khairin doesnt want me, and it happend again, with his wailing, with the incident at work, with mum & hub didnt bring along his plain water, really bothers me.

He didnt sleep still but was being cheeky when hub brought him in the restaurant. I lost my appetite, I didnt eat much. About 945 we left the restaurant, called for cab, and throughout the journey I just kept silent in fact till today I still havent talked much to hub.....I still cant forget the whole episode and worst still at office he brought up the issue asking me to remove my hijab...

Lately lots of things happened that made me kind of moody and tak kuasa.com

But nowadays...im beginning to smile...even its not ear to ear..but somehow it brightens up my life.

1) LUP that involves the flat Im staying now is confirmed....It will take abt 2yrs...(OMG, got to bear with the dusts...*ambil alat pelitup*) but I am really happy, a little tolerance and sacrifices means I dun have to pass by the corridor of inconsiderate neighbours.
p/s : to those who need to come to my home, for your own benefit, please alight at level 8 instead of 5.

2) The government giving cash this time...and its advance birthday present for my lil Khairin...apart from that, hes gonna get his next round of baby bonus as well...Syukur Alhamdulillah...

Now Im having headache, trying to get a place for dinner tonight. Its under the company's expenses...but the bosses are not going...only staffs. Bagus jugak..selalukan lah buat mcm nie...confirm my output gonna be more....(but im overwork liao...). Bosses tak ikut, lagi peaceful kami semua mkn....Khekhekhe

1) Seoul Garden
2) Bali Thai
3) Straits Kitchen
4) Cafe Vienna
5) Kintamani
6) Breeks
7) Swensens
8) Secret Recipe

mana satu eh....(Kreta racing no 1, wat number do you want?)

to choose a place for mkn pun memeningkan...

Long time no update. As usual, I will set aside a short time at work to post/update my blog. But since Friday, my pc went Kaput....Well Im thinking when its gonna be my turn.

I rarely on the pc at home, as the journey home really kills me. And once I see my hero, there goes my time. With his gembengnezz nowadays, I really have no time for other personal issues. All my time are SOLELY for him unless theres someone he wants to switch his attention to.

So many things happen and I getting more and more sicked with the surroundings. Apart from that, hub lost his hp....Arrghh!!! Whats makes me lose my mood and interest more is that, most of Khairin's videos, since he was just few days old was stored in it. I know hub was very affected by the lost but.....

Due to the lost of his hp, I didnt really enjoyed the trip we made to Singapore Zooligical Garden on Sat. for the 9 DSMB family day. It was bothering me, cos the night before the hp went missing, I kept repeating Khairin's video.....Was that a sense of lost??

To A's if you are reading this, sorry sis, if i dun look good that day....now u know the reason..

My second entry for the day......

It just struck me suddenly and I miss him soooooooo much...

Friday :

Hub suggested we spend the the night at Pasir Ris home, and I go to work from there the next day. I obliged to the idea. Hub asked me to wait for him at office, where he shall go home to get our stuffs, picked Khairin from mums place and fetched me. So he reached at about 7.30pm. Continued the journey to Pasir Ris and Khairin refused to let mil carry him when I passed him to her at the gate. Yeah let him warm up dulu.

I went in, left him at the living room and he start to crawl towards his favourite area....Where granny placed his toys. And he took his favourite toy and crawled to his granny and raised his hands. Pandai anak mama....*kiss* He broke the rules, he didnt sleep at his normal time, he slept at 9.30pm. Since sil not in town, we slept in her room, 3 beranak on one bed...I was very careful, takut terlanggar, tertentandang or terhempap Khairin.

Woke up, bathe, and got ready for work. Khairin will be taken care by hub and his family members.

Saturday :

Early part of the day was spent at work. Reached home at 1.30pm and he was sleeping after getting himself tired playing with mak chu, nyai and atok. At almost 5.30pm, hub wanted to go Parkway Parade. Went with Iza and mak. Khairin was eager and mentel....we walked around, went to banquet for dinner since Iza just came back from work. We went to Mothercare and I fall in love with gals clothings.....Iza took a few and showed me, "Kak, second one girl hor...I will have more choices to select..." (me smiling) "pray for me k....insya'allah"

Si Khairin ni plak, sibuk dok tgk baju pompuan gak, not only that kept staring at bb gal..."ewah², anak bujang nie..dah leh jaga mama lum?" hehe...

Headed home and reached at almost 9, and at 11.30 we decided to make our move. Thought nak tido jer sana, but hub didnt bring enough milk for Khairin, buat dia melalak tetgh mlm, mana nak cari.

Gedebak gedebuk, we reached home almost midnight. Put khairin in his cot, and I got the bed for myself...hehe...

Sunday :

Laze ard at home and by 3pm, I decided to go clinic due to my bad cough. Its been almost a week but it just didnt get better. Cost hub 41bucks...mahalnya...Ish!!!! I tink anitibiotic nyer pasal coz my throat was red...After that went to Causeway point. Metro having lotsa sales, but my sen got to be save...Aiseyman....next time hor...but i managed to get myself a bag....*wink*

While on our way back ibunda ku tersayang called, asking me tak kuar ke...masak apa. Since the marcaroni that I cooked for lunch still ada, I told her, we will pop by.....lagipun my dad jarang dpt jumpa Khairin, on weekdays, by the time he reached home, I already left my mums place....Pity him....

Im coughing like hell. It wasnt that bad initially but since yesterday night it just went crazy. Hub looked at me and gave me a stare, claiming that my cough was so bad. It not that I dont wanna go clinic and get MC, its just that...im soo super duper malas and apart from that they are other reasons.

And yesterday evening, I tink the neighbourhood must be alarmed by my screamed. Hahaha...all because of one cockcoach. I just have phobia with lipas and that was the caused of the scream. I was watching TV when I heard the toilet door opened and hub was done with his shower. Then I saw a glimpse of something fly passed. I was extremely sure that I saw something and kept staring towards the kitchen. Hub was busy washing his hand at the sink and yes I saw it on the wall and I screamed..."aaahhh lipas....abang....lipas...."and it was the betina, which mean can fly one. I jumped up the sofa and luckily didnt fall, mind you the floor was slippery.

The cockroach and me went to opposite direction and I quickly hid behind hub. And insisted that he go and catch that monster. And last I saw it was at the curtain. Pushing hub to go and he checked every corner sambil dia membebel, "lipas oh lipas, aku tk kacau kau, jgn lah kau kacau aku...keluarlah" but no sign of it. Then I saw it crawling and screamed again...till hub kata, " Tolonglah yang...jgn pekik gitu mcm, terperanjat abg"....peduli apa...as long as that monster lum dapat i wont stop screaming....lol

It went to the balcony and I kept pointing to hub where it went. In the end he clench his fist and threw it out of the window. I asked him u sure or not, u jgn bedek. He say betul lah, naik penyet monster tu, tak percaya cium ah tangan...Chett!! *buek*

So it was done but I still feel unsecure, I kept thinking tadi dia kat langsir tiba-tiba crawl kat different area, could it be a different one...haiya...So mana-mana hub pegi I membontot...haha, and bila kat dapur he asked me to make coffee for him, and he wanted to leave the kitchen, then I said, "alah duk sini dulu, tunggu ayg lah....takut nie.... "

Indah...indah....u so the penakut....what to do...phobia ma....kwangx3

10 Muharram 1427 Hijrah...

Since I got to know hub, on this date mil will not miss cooking bubur Asyura. But since last few years, she had gantung her periuk as, no kaki tangan to help. All of them are working and its not easy task, where this recipe uses 11 different kind of nuts....

But no matter what, I am thankful to her cos ever since the first time i tasted it, I like it very much and she didnt turn this menantu antu nyer request to masakkan during Khairins cukur rambut....So saper yg dtg tu, dpt rasa tak?

And for this rounf, she cooked it last wkend. Niat di hati nak tlg, but biasalah dengan anak, mana nak siapkan dia, siapkan diri sendiri...uwah...we reached there almost 12noon, dh siap masak pun, tinggal ngap jer khekhe

And this bubbly grandson of her...pun bukan main lagi...asik nganga jer mulut, lambat suap, dia pekik...eh nie dh melampau nie. Alamak Khairin jgn nanti kat umah cari gak tu bubur sudah...mama lum pass lagi. Kalau dh pandai ckp nanti minta nyai masakkan eh....*confirm anak antu*

K lah, there seems to be alot more that I wanna blog about, but the mood is just not there.





This is his look and his pose time tido at 9 months....

He turns 9months yesterday.....Such a big boy now. But he was not well since last Monday. It started with running nose, on wednesday night coughing and yesterday diarrhoea. Oh my poor boy.....I pity him, I make sure he consume plenty fluids to avoid him from being dehydrated.

Brought him to the clinic yesterday evening, lucky enough he wasnt cranky. Paedi precsribe him with running nose, cough and diarrhoea mixtures, he also advise us to switch to lactose free formula in the meantime till his diarrhoea subside. Get well soon son....

As he turns nine months, this is what hes capable of doing

* wave goodbye....(rapper style)
* clap his hands
* stand and walk few steps...(got to support on sofa)
* doesnt want to let go of me once im at my mums place
* hold his own bottle
* call ma....ma.....pa...pa....and bek...bek..(ish!!! nenek nyer mana)

3 more months to his first birthday....already have something in mind...gonna celebrate 3 birthday together.....*hip...hip....hurray*

Yesterday I was on compassionate leave, the demise of my cousins wife on 31January 06 bersamaan 01Muharram 1427.

I was shocked when my mum broke the news to me. I was already at mums place to send Khairin before departing for work but I decided not to report for work. Smsed my clg and we actually had to wait cos the jenazah is still at SGH for post-mortem. According to relatives theres too much complications and whole procedure ends at almost 4pm.

Jenazah dimandikan dan dikafankan.....I was crying during the procedure, even though we were not that close, but I was in great grief especially towards her baby. Yes, arwahnya just gave birth and the baby is only 4 mths old and I could really feel that the journey in life would be very struggling w/o a parent.

Samsi my dear nephew, I could see hw intelligent u were at ur mums burial, you keep ooo..aaa...to others its like telling others u are able to speak or feel ur mums existence. I pray that Allah strengthens both ur dad and your heart. Life has to go on.

Al-fateha buat Allahyarhamha, Titik Marlina Binte Md Din. Semoga rohnya di tempatkan di kalangan orang2 yg beriman....

The whole episode left a great impact on me....When I saw hub, I looked at him and hugged him tightly, we had Khairin together with us and we must treasure all that we have now....we never know wat awaits us......

Selamat Menyambut tahun baru 1427 Hijrah buat semua umat Islam. Semoga tahun baru ini akan membawa seribu keberkatan buat semua umatNya.

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Last Sun, we made a trip to Kota Tinggi. It was a last min arrangement as we couldnt make up our mind of KL or Johor.

It was indeed fun and I love the natural freezing water. It made me so fresh and rasa mcm tak nak kuar dari tu air pun ada but....before we stepped out, I asked hub, will there be a return and he said, of course....;)

We left Kota Tinggi at 4.30 and went to Giant at Plentong...So its milk grabby time...Not only i borong Khairin milk powder but his biscuits and cereals as well. Hah!! amik ko, mcm2 flavour ada, jadi mcm minimart plak umah my mum nanti.

Not to forget we headed for seafood and the driver and his wife invited us to singgah their mums home for awhile, for wash up...etc..etc...Baik kan!!! But we just changed the kids diaper.

Thumbs up service for abang Fazli and kak Liza, we surely gonna engage your service again.


Kota Tinggi - 29th January '06

Yippe long weekend. But too bad my wkend start only this tomorrow afternoon. Haiz....work commitment.

Looking forward for the wkend as Im gonna spend all the time that I have with my kimi raikkonon aka castello and also the short trip to....Kota Tinggi. Mesti ramai org kan!!! But never mind as long as I get to get to spend time with the loved ones.

Still trying to plan where we may land ourselves on Mon and Tues....Shopping centres confirm will be ghost town....Haiya....nielah dia if CNY, it seems that we only have limited choices. Movies??, but to think of the PH rates....it will only burn holes in our pocket...Worth it or not??

Knocking off in half an hrs time, cant wait to reach home....So to all my friends celebrating CNY, Gong Xi Fa Cai.....and Happy holidays everybody....

Visit to the Womans Specialist Clinic last Friday was indeed a blessing for me....Though I find its hard to accept but I should feel grateful that I found it out early. Ive been thru it before and if I got to go thru the eposide again, I believe Im so much stronger.

Ya'Allah jgnlah kau sekatkan pemberian mu kepada ku hanya pada satu. Sesungguhnya, aku masih berkeingingan dan jika setelah aku usaha tetap tiada, aku redha dan terima ketentuanMu...Amin

Sat was my off day. It was spent by going geylang with mum, sis, hub, the kids. For me and hub we only managed to join them for a while, as we need to rush to Pasir Ris, FIL is all alone at home. We brought some food from Geylang, and I decided to do simple marketing for him. Menggeram tgk ikan kat pasar....

Spent the whole day there, waited for Iza to come home after work with dinner. Her pay day so she treated us.

Sun woke up at around 8 and asked hubby, what he wants to eat. Dia pulak tanya, ada jual apa?? In my heart...kalau exam immediate failure lol. I then asked what would he like to eat for lunch and dinner. He looked at me and shook his head.

Him : "Nak masak? Tak payahlah"

Me : "Aik!! Org tgh ada semangat nak masak, dia taknak plak"

Me : "So wat do you want?"

Him : "Hmm..Thosai Masalah"

Me : "Alright, please take care of this castello, Im going now"

To think back, thats human nature. When I have mood to cook, he doesn't want and when the M mode is there, dia tak nak ajak kuar mkn plak tu....Haiya!!! But no matter wat sun was spent at home, when my kimi was sleeping from 11.45 to 2.15pm. Nyenyak betul. After he woke up, with such a good mood, we then decided to go out. Headed to C.P. Memandangkan perut dah main keroncong, we filled up our tank first.

Settled for Siam Kitchen. We had spicy beef noodle, frankly the taste was just ok, and it still cant compare to our all time favourite, Thaksin Beef Noodle at Clementi Central. And not to forget, I tried the tomyam upon request ;) they used tomyam paste and I find it not original...

After that headed to Metro and I got my mp3 and last stop to NTUC for groceries shopping. Headed home, and for dinner, hub decided to eat at mums place...ish!!! tak malu nyer.....I wasnt agreeable mcm tak sedap gitu...but mum called instead informing me that khairin's milk is finish at her place. I said ya, i thought of going there to send his things...and i put my malu one side and asked her wat she cooked.

Some dishes are just irresistable, siput, ikan cencaru bakar. But I make sure that I just take a small portion....in was hard indeed, but hubby is there to *hepp* if i take more lol

Scenario that took place yesterday morning...

Him : "Wah u dah tembam eh"
Me : "What!!!" (look at myself at the mirror)
Me : (went putting my face directly infront of him)...."am i fat?"
Him : "I said u tembam...didnt say u gemuk"
Me : "Ya...but..."
Him : "Maintain k....dun put on"
Me : "U see....its confirmlah..."
Him : "Gie jogging lah"
Me : "U lah....ckp jer nak ajak gie jogging but tarak bayang pun"

hub smiled all the way

Oh no!!! Yes I could see that I put on weight....During Eid last week, my cousin gave me the remark, my primary school mate gave me the remark....and the list goes on....

Clothings in the wardrobe are dumped there to collect dust. I always ask myself, when I can put them on again.

Hub said I dun eat much....but how come. I tink got to be firm....must eat proper diet....Hope to able to lose some weight....

Again.....My colleague and I were called in to our M.D.'s room. Let out session. For the how many times I couldn't remember.....its again they propose that yours truly to handle the company's account. In a moment of confuse I just blurt out....On a trial!!! But some people just couldnt accept my answer and told me...its a challenge for u...but in my heart...yeah!!! rite.....u merely wants me to say yes....but I know myself too well, the answer is already deep down in my heart. But apart from all these probs, Im thankful to Allah....there will be increament....Syukur Alhamdulillah...

Back at home, at about midnight then got the chance to discuss about the prob Im facing at work with my other half. Im right from the beginning....hub shared the same point as me...He listened to what I got to let out, and his respond is just what I have in my mind.

So the conclusion is done....I got to be firm....I got to think of my own benefits...I cant keep on pleasing people but on the other hand Im being unfair to myself. For now, my family is my priority....Should anything comes....FAMILY is my main concern.