Reading Frina's entry, made me recall the incident that took place in early 2003. My parents involved in in hit & run accident @ the malaysia highway. Still remember vividly @ midnight, my parents got ready and waited for my aunt and uncle to fetch them. I was informed that they were going to KL, for some medical treatment for my aunty who were diagnosed with cervix cancer. Before they left, when I salam mama, I felt so different, a strange feeling struck me, I kissed her forehead and waved her goodbye from the kitchen's window. Immediately I did my sunat prayer with the doa still fresh in my mind, "Ya'Allah, tidak pernah hambaMu berperasaan sebegini, selamatkan segalanya, dan jauhkan sesiapa sajer terutama mama/papa ku dari segala musibah.

I cant sleep, I kept tossing and turning and managed to doze off. Suddenly I shouted the word "Yong Peng", woke up, istifar and told myself, its just a nightmare. Woke up at 6am, did my subuh prayer and I received a call from my another aunt, informing me that the car my parents were in met with an accident at Yong Peng. I felt extremely weak and immediately rushed to my sis placce to break the news to her. Tried calling papa but theres no connection. Managed to get hold of my aunt who were with them, she told me not to worry, as my mums condition was not serious. I dun give a damn, serious atau tidak, shes my mum, for sure I need the assurance in front of my eyes that she ok. Arrange for a transport to bring us to Batu Pahat Hospital. I just dun understand certain people, who can actually treat this like an outing....Bring the whole family...I just dun have the mood to say a thing.

During the journey, my mind was in total mess, I just kept saying my doa and hope the assurance that my aunt gave me was true. Due to the lateness, we selisih jln and decided to meet at my aunty's place in Johor. Upon seeing mama, I knew shes having internal injury. She felt so nausea and kept vomitting and these people just got the cheek to tell my mum, rest dulu and eat something. She threw up everything that she eat....Then I knew something is just not right. Mama being someone who is so humble, just kept quiet and goes with their rhythm. I mcm nak call ambulance, straight bring her back to Singapore.

At 3pm decided to leave JB, for my sis, my bro, me and dad, we insisted to be in the same car as her. Reached SGH A&E at 4.30pm and theres so many procedures that the situation really got on my nerves. Papa, my aunty and uncle just received outpatient treatment. Mama was pushed to ward and the surgeon came and told us, why did we took long to come...Shes in critical stage. They had to postpone other operations and mama have to be operated by that night jugak. Initially we tot it affects her arm only, but the doc saw that her stomach was infected. They got to op her stomach before they can do the arm.

Ya'ALLAH, I cried and cried cos I dun wanna lose my mum...Shes the only person I have in this world.....Shes my everyting.....At that moment, while waiting for the surgery, it reflected on hw bad I was, how stubborn I was when shes there for me...I long for her hug and warmth of her love, I want to hug her and make her happier than before. Please Allah give me another chance to be filial daughter to her.....

I dun wana go home, I want to be with her. For two times in my life, I dun get to see my 2 lurve ones during their last breathe and I dun want it to happen again. Alhamdulillah everything done and the surgery that suppose to take 2 hrs dragged to 8 hrs ending at 4am. Mama was pushed to the Intensive Care Unit and it hurts me even more to see all the tubes and metals objects on her....She was asleep, I kept talking to her, ask for her forgiveness and spending 3 days at ICU, she was transfered to normal ward....Hw happy I was and Im grateful to Allah for giving my mama the strength to pull through....

How much I love my mama....is how I want to be love by my son and future children Insya'ALLAH.

Tagged Again

Alamak first day of the week dh kena perah otak?? Terima kasih to sweet Syazah....Oh dlm baik awak sabo kita balik eh...*biasa dia* hehehe..

Orait beta do it fast...nak kena cari mangsa lagik...

Seven things that (will) scare me
1) Cockroaches
2) Dogs
3) Open sea
4) The last breadth of my lurve ones
5) Pati ikan haruan polleny
6) Pool of blood
7) Train stop for long time in tunnel

Seven things I like the most
1) Vacations (no matter long/short)
2) Precious moments with my 2 guys
3) "Rape" my son heheh
4) My L.V. bag (bought with my first bonus)
5) Pastas
6) Shopping ; with my mama, papa and husband paying
7) Suprises

Seven most important things in my room
1) My bed (takde bantal pun takpe)
2) My wedding potrait on the wall
3) Aircon/kipas
4) Clock with date
5) T.V.
6) Bel'Air
7) Big bb bottle piggy bank (all coins will be contributed there at the end of the day)

Seven random facts about me
1) Jovial
2) Kepala batu
3) Expressive
4) So....difficult to give a smile
5) Can forgive but will never forget
6) Not easily influenced by peoples comment on another individual (i lurve to be with them b4 judging them)
7) Too sensitive with dust (sinus will start and will sneeze out loud like nobody's business)

Seven things I plan to do before I die
1) Repent
2) Settle all debts
3) Be a SAHM
4) Be a good individual to all my status
5) Provide good environment for education and moral for my son and future children insya'ALLAH
6)To mecca for haj/umrah with my family insya'ALLAH
7) To take care of my husband and kids in any conditions they may be and make them the happiest people on earth

Seven things I can do
1) Cook (nak pikat husband melalui perutnya)
2) Spend hours in front of my pc
3) "Ukur jalan" hehehe...walk and walk w/o rasa penat (kalau dh penat...hubby lah mengubatnya)
4) Travelling to Perak in coach when I was 6mths preggy
5) Go for thrilling rides
6) Jump from the bus when I was 8tmhs preggy (giler punyer budak, but must make sure got other passengers alighting after me)
7) Bake cookies for raya (ada nak tempah??)

Seven things I cant do
1) Drive (PHOBIA)
2) Sleep w/o husband giving me a goodnite kiss (kalau dia duty lain criter lerr...)
3) Be a good cook like my mama
4) Be a blood donor
5) Hide my feelings
6) Reading manuals (if novels or mags OK)
7) Spend the nite alone when hubby on duty though nw I have Khairin to accompany

Seven words I say the most
1) Ah?
2) Apa jer
3) Bedek
4) Hola
5) Eh??
6) Luv u
7) Bean..bean (coz my son lurves giving us his Mr Beans look)

Seven celeb crushes
1) Ako Mustapha
2) Ari Wibowo
3) Brad Pitt
4) Anuar Zain
5) Alan Smith
6) Ariel (Peter Pan)
7) Jon Bon Jovi

Seven people I'll love to see doing this...
1) madamde
2) Girlnani
3) Hunny
4) Nura
5) Nunah
6) Fiza
7) Haslina

K gals if u already been tagged before i forward, just ignore...:)

P/s to syazah..Now then i can continue my lunch....hehehe...

A new SKIN finally

Jeng..Jeng...Yes!!! Finally its done. Been trying to find time to change the skin, cos this template was emailed to me long2 ago....Hehe..Im impressed with the layout...Thanks to this sweet individual....*hugs*

So now its done...Alamak 0033 hrs liao!!! Better go to bed now...How nice my hubby and kimi now in their wonderland.....

Zzzzz......

Ive been tagged

Received this from her.....

3 things about me

1) Im a jovial lady....always believe we need to have the companion of others to make our life more lifely

2) I dont fall in love easily and once I lurve that person, I will love him till my last breath....that is my husband....

3) I always put others priority before me...sometimes it affects my relation with hubby....cos I have this mindset...If you think you are in trouble, there are others who have bigger trouble than you....*i must learn to be more attentive to my own family*

i shall pass this to....

* Ida*

*Syazah*

*Nura*

*Haneymum*

*Ezayu*

My Poor Boy

Yesterday I was on urgent leave....Due to the reason of my precious little Khairin. On Monday evening when I picked him up from mama's place, Narti told me that Khairin was crying most of the time and she said, his body was warm. Quickly checked on him...I tink hes having fever. Since mama was not @ hm, Narti doesnt give him any medicines. She was worried if my face was to turn one kind...Nah!! its ok, we never know that Khairin would get his fever on that day.

Checked his temperature, but it just shows 36.5. Waited for mama and off we went home. He wasnt crying, wasnt cranky, he just lay down quietly and soon dozed off. I gave him the fever syrup every 4hrly.

At 5.30, I heard husband calling his friend informing that hes not going to work as Khairin is having high fever....

??Quickly woke up and touched Khairin's forehead, Ya'Allah, its burning hot. Sponge him and call the bb clinic hotline. Dr Foo advised us to continue sponging him and bring Khairin to her clinic. Initially I wanted to go work, but upon seeing him like that, I just couldnt bear to leave him under the care of husband alone.

Smsed my colleague and decided to cancel my half day leave for (today) and will be on urgent leave instead. The leave was applied for his 2nd dose of 5 in 1. Got ready and made our way to the clinic by 8.30am. Now he started crying his heart out. Luckily bof of us were ard, if not tak taulah, mcm maner nak react.

Had his temperature taken and it showed 39.5....My poor sweetheart, my heart really ached when I see u in pain. First on the list, Ahmad Nur Khairin. He was restless in Dr Foo's room and doesnt co-operate when she wanted to see his throat. She assured me its cold and told me to give his medicines on time. Out from the room, he was so kwai...no more crying...Kids they are smart kan?? Bila nak jumpa doc mcm nak rak di buatnya. We waited for a while as I need to enquire abt their 5 in 1 jab.

I see that my annual leave are getting lesser and nanti by time raya, no more leaves left...Ni yg tk best. I planned to get his jab done at Dr Foo's clinic at least I can go during the weekend or after work....

And now Im at work, my worries were reduced when on the way to mama's place, Khairin kept giggling and talking to himself...No more the "ayam berak kapur" look....Thats my boy.....Hes back to his normal self.....Luv u darling....*kiss kiss*

Cant be BOTHERED

Just dun understand the whole situation now. I got so many things in my mind. Career switch or bear with it... My patience is reaching its limit oredi. Im just thinking how long more I can go through this. Fact is the environment Im in...Working environment to be precise. Smoke everywhere...and this is the factor that has caused my head to go damage. Smoking den u can call it here.

I dun know who to blame?? Myself or these smokers..Yes I earn my monthly salary here but does it mean my health will be at risk?? I just dont know how to explain but whenever Im being sandwich between my career and my superior my thoughts go haywire. And also i dun understand WHY some human beings are so damn inconsiderate and never have bit of respect. If before this, U know where to proceed to lit ur cigarette, y not now?? And y must U add on to the air pollution that has already been polluted??

And y are so jealous of me keep on going leave or even MC. Got the cheek to ask, "The boss allow to go on MC every week eh?" Bloody idiotic moron....If Im sick, it means Im really sick...Im not an MC Queen for your info....What u tink i suka2 go clinic and pretend to have diarrhoea or would say, "Yes doc, Im having migraine." but doesnt even now what is migraine....If u dont know what is migraine, dun even think of having it....Kept piciting ur head, for what?? to seek attention or sympathy....Boleh blah ah...

Am i sensitive?? I know im not, but people think otherwise....As far I know, im someone flexible....I dun boot lick to please people, its up to u to judge me but dun judge me on others comments, be with me, be my friend then judge me....but if u hapen to provoke me......thats it....

If you want people to respect you, prove to them that u ought to be respected and u will earn the respect.

...Barbeque...

Saturday - left home at 12noon. Headed to pasir ris home. Mil and sils were all waiting to see my kimi hehehe...Didnt visited mum last week as she was away to Kuala Lumpur to visit my elder sil. And Iza just came back from the US. Spent the whole afternoon with them and sempat follow them to jemputan at Tampines. By 6.30, all of us headed to Pasir Ris Park for my dearest sis barbeque. Let the pictures do the talking....click ->Barbeque at Pasir Ris UOB Bungalow
Only managed to get these shots and the sad news is that rainwater gets into my darling Finepix F440...Oh no!!! Sorry dear husband, as it was partly my fault.....It rained suddenly and we were all busy sheltering ourselves when I totally forgot abt the digicam that I had left in the tent. So I guess water must have got through it.....Lucky enough we had bought the extended warranty and will bring it to the shop for repair.....

Well since khairin had turn 4months, I had started to give him his cereals.....Though its more advisable to feed by spoon, sometimes when things get too stress up I would use the bottle. He enjoys it more and wont get irritated....Khairin darling, mama wanna feed u sayang....whenever I have the time, I wanna avoid the bottle, but I cant bear to see u crying and I got no choice but to give u through bottle....maybe its still early, I will definitely keep on trying...->Khairin turns 4month

He turns 4

Thanks to Ida and Rina......Yup i will take care and mamam the obats....

Today khairin turns 4 mths. So fast!! Looking at his progress daily, weekly and monthly, Im contented with it. But at same time, Im beginning to miss the days when he was just out from my womb. His tiny body, so red and fragile, cradling him on my arms and not to forget those bedungs moment.

What SIL said is true. This was when I showed her that khairin can turn his body fully. She said not too fast boy..we will miss those moments when u only know about sleeping with one position.

And as for me, the most thing that Im gonna miss is his baby's smell with the uweeks etc...its gonna disappear bit by bit. Then it will be haprak time...hehehe.

Ytdy, I was covered with MC. It was on weds evening, I really felt soo weak. Did my consultation and told the doc what I had experienced. She told me its some kind of virus and Im running a temperature up and down. Advise me to monitor my condition and to take my temperature hourly and avoid heavy foods for the time being. No sharing of utensils and food...Sakit apa nie???

She gave me the triggering factors that I have to avoid and to eat my medicines regularly if I do not want my condition to worsen.

Alrite here are pictures of my sweetheart that was captured this morning...