Wednesday, August 31, 2005

...My HEAD!!!...

Immediately half an hr after lunch yesterday, I felt soooo sick. My head was spinning, stomach was uneasy. Felt nausea and in the end I threw up all my lunch. There goes my nasi campur with ayam lemak cili padi, kangkung and fish cake. My Oh My!!! Whats happening here...Cant I enjoy my lunch???

The pain was getting more and more excruciating. My head was like being compressed. Took a nap but it didnt went away coz I dun have the medications in hand and even if I had, I need to rest in a dark quiet room, mana nak cari tu spot. I was bearing the pain that was unbearable. Didnt take any panadol too cos of my degilzness. In the end, took a cab home, but the driver was so meddlesome and I kept telling him to just leave me alone as I was having bad headache but he continued his merabans. Kept saying he is soooo sian. E'eh makin rezeki tak masuk lerrrr...I told him, I'm more sian listening to your nonsense with my abt to explode head.

During the journey I wanted t throw up again and this time Balm didnt work for me. I guess it was a sudden migraine attack that had left me for months. Y must u come again??

Went back to mums place and minta tlg to massage and pull the hair for my urat2 kepala, the sounds were so syiok. Applied limau nipis and hey it doesnt work too.....What should I do nw?? Kept telling husband but he was too tired with his exam today that I got to treat myself. I swallowed two panadols and cried to sleep. Waked by Khairin's cry for his feed, I thought the pain had went away and what I went thru was just a nightmare, but within seconds it strike again.

Woke up in the mrng, washed my head, and now Im @ work. Dont wanna take MC, just got no mood to wait at the polyclinic. Reason?? My condition will just gonna get worst. Dahlah tu nie company pun tak accept private clinic mc, mcm anak gamen pulak!!!

While writing this I am still tolerating the pain from my head.......AaarrgHHH!!!

Monday, August 29, 2005

...Weekend...

Like she said 48hours passed so fast....Belum puas enjoy the weekend, its Monday again. Aargghh...malasnya nak bangun but what to do.....Motivate myself.....Got to work!!!

Nothing much happened during the weekend except for shopping with mama, papa, husband and khairin. Window shopping for me actually....Destination?? Geylang...Though i work at that area but just seem doesnt have the time to really window shop at ease. Yalah time lunch, beli makan, pastu cepat2 kena balik office. So sian...

Managed to recce kains...untuk apa?? raya...Tapi ada kah tailor lagi nak amik tempahan??*scratch my head* Stop at one of this shop saw baju kurung dh siap, purple colour..wink2 at husband...He got no comment, so i will just get it for raya. But tgh tunggu dulu, mana tau ada colour menarik coming....

Sunday, whole day at home, mums not cooking so apa lagi.....zooomm rumah mama. Can smell she cooked asam pedas ikan duri....Yummy....Went there alone and got what i wanted.....Hehehe... After lunch it was just lazing ard session at home as husband got to do revision for his theory on Tuesday.....

What a bored weekend, but Im looking forward for this weekend....Got a bungalow...Sewa da....Meaning....Im gonna have barbeque......Yes!!! Hope this weekend gets better.

Friday, August 26, 2005

...T.G.I.F.

Alhamdulillah the day of the week has come..Yippe...Tomorrow my off saturday. Today got dating ;) with my husband lah saper lagi....takkan scandal kot!!! Kwang...kwang...kwang...

The date, we are going for movie, The Maid. It was me the gatal woman, to date husband, cos it been long since we last caught a movie in the cinema. Mula2 bila nak ajak tu fikir berkali kali cos takut husband turn down as lately hes been too tired and stress with the course that he is in now...Cian husband, tuesday got exam some more.

Alhamdulillah too he doesnt turn me down. To our little Ahmad Nur Khairin, Dun worry sweetheart, you will be in great care of nenek, and for sure will be enjoying ur own movies with the three kiddos. Mama & Papa will be back as soon as we can to fetch you....*muah*

To all my blog readers, friends, have a great weekend....Bubbye...

Thursday, August 25, 2005

...TOLERATE...

Tolerable - endurable
Tolerance - willingness or ability
Tolerant - disposed to tolerate others / patient of
Tolerate - allow the existence or occurance of w/o authoriatative interference / be able to take or undergo without harm

Why I was on MC?? Due to the factors above. I cant tolerate, the tolerant of the tolerance as its not tolerable. I also dun know what the hell I merepeks. So if tak faham buat donno ye...My blog kan??

Its wat I have been feeling lately. Ya'Allah only u know what am I thinking now. Working in small firm this is the problem. Working with malays there are the consequences. Im not pointing to all malay organisations out there but this is just what I feel. Its true indeed when people say, "Dah bagus tu ada kerja". Yes and I really bersyukur with the job and post I have now. But money cant buy ppls sweat and time. Dun even say abt money, down here theres no OT claim available.

Straight for the past week, my energy is being perah sekering tidak, and it will happen after 5.30pm. Eh apa are these pest blind or what?? I got new responsibility as a mum. Lately leave office by 7-7.15, journey home really kills me. Upon reaching at mums place, khairin wld be sleeping, then either i eat at mums place or tapao. Mum would ask am i too bz?? Yalah i sent khairin by 7.20am, then after 12hrs of care service masih lum amik2, i pun understand and i sometimes joke with mama, " Kalau childcare agaknya anak i dh kena tunggu depan gate"...Hahaha.

She doesnt mind & at least my dad will get the chance to see khairin cuma dia pun fikir jugak, balik, tido then mrng kuar lagi. Sometimes she offered me to stay there for the nite but I cant. Ntahlah maybe due to the reason, I want to be independent and tau erti hidup berkeluarga. Going home late means no time for my dear khairin. When Im free hes sleeping, when its time for his feeds in the wee hrs, Im like a zombie.

So decided to take MC on tuesday. I really took the chance, played and entertained him the whole day. How I miss him. Husband understands my plight and told me if i cant handle, then let him handle sorang, means lesser time for the family if i decides to resign....No!!! Thats the last resort. Will never leave work to satisfy myself, it will just make matters worst. But sometimes I do envy friends who are SAHM but for me not at the moment. Husband told me to give him about another 3 yrs time..Bila itu time dtg baru leh ckp, for now lips are seal.

Hey people have u ever cried in public and felt lost?? Yup it happened to me and Im really afraid of going thru such depression.....Smsed husband but at that moment he cant be with me as he needs to drive....Its ok. Istifar, and think of Ahmad Nur Khairin, insya'allah it reduces the -ve tots.

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

..Its him again...

Suppose to get this entry updated yesterday or day before but just couldnt find the time . Monday was bz @ work and yesterday was on MC. Reason?? Hmm...nanti kita share.

Back to wat Im supposed to update...


















Since we were at Pasir Ris home @ that time, mati2 told husband that nak tgk the race jugak. Ard 7pm khairin got restless and I got to make him topless again *as if dia suka sgt bertopless at his nyai's home* My bil cma home and was disappointed to see this budak kecik sleeping like sammi buddha hehehe.... He insisted husband to wake khairin up, yalah if he volunteers to attend to khairin's angin.
Told bil, just give him half an hr tto rest. And yes!! khairin woke up and in the nick of time before the race start. Member ngotok tgk...mata mcm buah longan. Ish!!! Nevermind darling as long as u be kwai...hehe if not stress u.
My Kimi RaikkONon

Saturday, August 20, 2005

...Tulang...

Yummie, got my tulang yesterday. Ive got the craving to eat tulang lately but just couldnt get the chance. People kept saying baru anak satu.....Well wat the problem ha?? Ku punyer suka ah...

So that day I bought this garlic baguette from Delifrance and offered to my nephew.

Me : "Ilham nak??"
Ilham : *shook his head*
Me : Quite surprised as he loves to eat. "Knp tak nak?, Ilham kenyang eh?"
Ilham : "Tu hari Ilham dh makan tulang dgn roti nie, Papa beli 2 satu rumah bawah, satu rumah nenek" (well actually my sis was staying just one floor down from my mums place)
Me : "What Ilham makan tulang!! Bila?? OOooo.. tak ajak mano eh? Lain kali mano beli taknak kasi ham.
Ilham : Guilty face and ran towards the kitchen....

Told my mum and sis what happened and well I was just joking with this cute nephew of mine. So due to that the cravings makin meluap luap. So after work yesterday, met husband at Lavender Mrt Station and made our way to Beach Road Food Centre. Woi!!! byk kedai Deen Biasa...Apa lagi while husband was waiting for satay, I went over to buy my tulangs. This man gave me namecard and told me order then antar rumah pun boleh....Hmmm...ask him abt the delivery charge and told me Yishun will cost $12.00. Dlm hati, wow good offer. Cos it will be the same if i were to go and buy myself. The cab fare home will cost ard there. So husband...*be on ur guard*...mana tau ader jer org ketuk pintu untuk hantar tulang....

Went back to my mums place. Laid the food and tinggal tunggu my sis jer for the baguette. Enjoyed myself and this niece of mine who is a piranha for tulang kept aiming for the som2. Pantang lepa, the som2 will be gone from my plate *evil look*

Takpe lah, buat apa nak argue2, shes just a kiddo. But kena jaga2 gak cos its heaty. After finished our meal, decided to go home. Khairin, we decided to leave behind as yesterday nite lotsa bakar2, husband and I were having this not rite feeling to bring khairin back. Cos initially I told husband, mum and sis abt kak oni's doter after I read her blog. Then on TGIF yesterday ada trailer for the movie THE MAID. Mama wants to jaga khairin for the nite. So off we go.

On our way home, people were still doing their prayers and burning here and there. Nak jalan pun kena hati2. All of a sudden my migraine came back. Due to all these asaps. The whole day at work our next door neighbour were burning and the smoke can be smelt rite to my nose...kepala dh mula bengal.

Once reached home, washed my feet, clean myself and I was totally flat. Husband knew that I was having migraine and he didnt disturb me for anything. Sorry darling that u got to make ur own coffee...:-(

Sunday, August 14, 2005

Talkative

Since khairin is enjoying his sleep now, take the chance to update.

At 8.30 am khairin was crying. Decided to check on him and I saw both his nostrils were half covered. He was having a blocked nose. Must be passed ard virus that started from husband. I was thinking of any baby clinic that operates on Sunday. Luckily there is one somewhere near my area and we have to be there by 12noon. So quickly bathed him, get ourselves ready and woke hubby up.

Waited for cab, satu bayang pun tak nampak, so decided to take a bus. Reached at almost 11.15am and was 3rd in q. He now weighs 6.5kg.Tgh tunggu turn dia buat kek plak. Quickly cleaned him up and straight to the doctors room. Was examined and we were asked lotsa questions, this budak bams, was so kepo, nak join the conversation till the doctor say, I talked u also want to talk....dgn muka selamba he just smiled and continued his baby language.

Got nose drop, running nose, and fever syrup and she gave sample pack for the cereal. Told us to try and give him when he turns 4 mth. Ok, then proceed home. Gave his medicines and off he went to sleep. At ard 3pm, get ready again, this time to her place.

First time meeting her, nice person to get to know to. Sorry ya rina if i seems to be so kwai...heheh..segan u. But indeed it was pleasant to meet u sekeluarga. Makanan sedap, masak sendiri eh?? Sorry that i got leave early, initially nak gie wedding reception but we decided to cancel the plan as I just received the news of my fathers aunty fell at jb the day before.

Orait thats all for now....Gonna give my sweetheart his medicine...

Saturday, August 13, 2005

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve

Thursday, August 11, 2005

...Photos...

As promised here are the few shots taken during the celebration @ yishun.




Wednesday, August 10, 2005

...The Celebration...


















The anniversary celebration wasnt that bad. Well no mushy2 hehehe...cos I was shocked to hear from this someone..."Jaga2 pat2 anniversary nie lah, selalu accident"...Hmm...hehehe, shared the joke with hubby and he told me, next time joke balik," Now cannot nanti kena saman + points hahaha..." well its the time of the month. Initially I was quite worried and stress, coz it came late and missed one cycle. We are not ready for another one yet, but if its a gift from Him, we will accept. But now kena tepis saner sini....*wink at hubby*

We didnt went out earlier coz aiya, of all days mr flu and friends decided to give me a visit. Start counting...1, 2, 3, wow its been long since I last got sick...And it has to be on my anniversary, kacau mood ajer...No chance to take mc cos Im on leave on wednesday....I took a day leave due to some family issue, but my god my leave was wasted man. It was being postponed to Friday. No way that I will take leave again....Lucky mum was understanding enough but on my part I feel bad....

Back to how my day was spent. At 5pm, hati nie dh semangat nak tgk celebrate @ yishun. Its a day for remembrance. So off we went out at ard 6. Sent khairin to mum place, not that I wanna lepas tgn tau, mum knows how much I love to watch the jet pass and fireworks and volunteered to look after khairin cos she doesnt want khairin to get restless there...Yeah with all the crowds and hot weather and also the berdentam dentum.

Went with hubby, sis, kanak2 and narti. It had a great atmosphere. Can see the excitement at everyones face. Manage to catch the jet pass and my niece who is 2 plus was so takut, and in my heart lucky khairin didnt follow.. Watched the fireworks and it was indeed the best celebration I ever seen cos this time the theres fireworks and 4 different places too. Hope for the coming years its gonna be this kinda celebration...

And dh kelam kabut sgt, sampai terpula nak bawak dgcam. But managed to get few shots from my handphone. Will get the pics uploaded soon. Meanwhile heres how my sweetheart looked on our anniversary day...For more photos please click 2nd Anniversary
















Khairin with the gift from aunty ayu...

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

...Anniversary Mood...

Here comes the day.

Happy 40th bdae to Singapore..

Whereby the nation are out there to celebrate Singapore Independence, we do not want to be excluded hahaha!!! Thats the reason why we chose this date. Its holds lots of memories to Singaporeans and hope to us too.













Happy 2nd anniversary to my beloved husband, Mohd Khalid Ahmad. It was this date in 2003, i was solemnised to a wonderful man whom I had just got to know to. To me how long or short the time frame was, its just numbers, that we will stop counting when we decided not to go further. Alhamdulillah, been husband & wife for 2 years had really thought us that, mariage is not as easy as youngsters out there may think.

It was this date too in 2004, that I found myself pregnant. Syukur alhamdulillah, our prayers were answered and thank you Allah for giving us the chance and opportunity to become parent. Insya'ALLAH will we carry out the amanah our best with iman & taqwa. How fast time went, now Ahmad Nur Khairin b Md Khalid is already 3months and 6days to be exact.





























At this moment, what more could I ask for except for the well being of family and my little sweethear especially. Ya'Allah berkatilah rumahtangga ku bersama suami & zuriat kami. Lindungilah kami dari segala kesusahan dan fitnah.

To my hubby thanks for all you had done for me. Accepting me for who I am, never looked into my past and satu i love very much....tak lokek hehehe....May our marriage last and be stronger each day. Thanks for lurving me.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

...My Kimi...

...My Kimi...



...My Kimi...yes thats the title, must be wondering what the hack it is...:) Well its actually what i call my sweetheart sometimes. Alias name given by my hubby the day we reveived this gift from my SIL and BIL. Its Maclaren Techno XT. And the name is adopted from Kimi Raikkonen who drives Maclaren car in F1. Hahaha...Tapi takkan nak copy fully kan, so we change it to Kimi RaikkoNon...Konon2 pun jadilah.

Yesterday marked my little sweetheart's 3rd month since out from my womb. Wow!! that was fast man, and looking at him everyday, attending to his cries and entertaining him never tires me. No matter how tired and stress I may be, his cheeky smile really boost my energy..Tq sweetheart.

He went for his jab ytdy and it looked so pitiful when the nurse poked the needle to his right thigh. Before that, when the nurse was getting the jab ready I was talking to him...he was so jovial but his face turned red and he stared at me..."Im sorry darling, if only I could take ur place..." But hey he was quiet when passed him to hubby. He started to coo...oo...aaahh...Must be complaining rite??...Never mind lah dear as long as u are ok. He's now 6.3kg and 53cm. Kush semangat, bab tu tangan beta lenguh hehehe...

Went back to my mums place as I wanted to get some things from causeway pt. Decided not to bring him as Im afraid he may get cranky and may develop fever. Made sure he asleep before I left him. By 6pm brought him back, quite happy with his reaction. I was worried in case the fever may give him a visit at night..I even took his temperature every hr just in case. Alhamdulillah all went well.

By 10 he slept soundly and woke up at 4am for his milk. Normally during his feeds in the early morning after he finishes his milk, i would just make him lay on his cot and leaves him by himself, he would doze off on his own. Perut dh kenyang apa lagi nak kan?? Hehehe...Told him, mama & papa need to sleep, as we are working later....He just smile at me...Cair man!!! Lagi2 now, with so little hair....