Friends close to me, must be anxiously waiting for my dinner update plus snaps of pics that I had planned. But Im really sorry that, something happened last min and it really made me lost mood.

Well to some people, maybe its a small matter or some kind of joke but hey for me its something really serious and it affects my pride.

It all happened when I just finished my Asar prayer, when I changed from telekung to tudung, and he opened the curtain...I was stunned. Instead of apoligising and close the curtain back, he just stood there and compliment. I quickly put on my hijab and went out. I was seriously disappointed and I lost all focus and concentration.

I thought I was safe, safe to pray cos all along this never happened, and this was the first time...He got the cheek to bring it up and told me to remove my hijab. He infact debated saying, he tot there was no one or I may be sleeping. But still, I told him off, if the curtain is draw, must be a lady inside....dun care whether shes sleeping or wat, u got no right to open....cos if theres no one inside the room, takkan curtain tu kita tutup kan...Use ur brain lah!!!

Throughout the journey, to dinner, I kept laughing with my colleagues but only GOD knows what was in my mind...I was affected by the whole issue and upon seeing hub at tampines, Khairin was sleeping but he woke up a while later and started to get cranky. We proceeded to the restaurant and Khairin started to cry like hell. People started to look at me one kind, as if I dun know how to pacify him....I did what I could, I said prayers in his ear, and one minute he was smiliing and quiet, but the next minute he wailed again.

It really tested my patience that he keep throwing his bottle and body from my arm. Till hub came out and took him over. He totally went silent in hubs arm. I was sad, and lately Khairin doesnt want me, and it happend again, with his wailing, with the incident at work, with mum & hub didnt bring along his plain water, really bothers me.

He didnt sleep still but was being cheeky when hub brought him in the restaurant. I lost my appetite, I didnt eat much. About 945 we left the restaurant, called for cab, and throughout the journey I just kept silent in fact till today I still havent talked much to hub.....I still cant forget the whole episode and worst still at office he brought up the issue asking me to remove my hijab...

Lately lots of things happened that made me kind of moody and tak kuasa.com

But nowadays...im beginning to smile...even its not ear to ear..but somehow it brightens up my life.

1) LUP that involves the flat Im staying now is confirmed....It will take abt 2yrs...(OMG, got to bear with the dusts...*ambil alat pelitup*) but I am really happy, a little tolerance and sacrifices means I dun have to pass by the corridor of inconsiderate neighbours.
p/s : to those who need to come to my home, for your own benefit, please alight at level 8 instead of 5.

2) The government giving cash this time...and its advance birthday present for my lil Khairin...apart from that, hes gonna get his next round of baby bonus as well...Syukur Alhamdulillah...

Now Im having headache, trying to get a place for dinner tonight. Its under the company's expenses...but the bosses are not going...only staffs. Bagus jugak..selalukan lah buat mcm nie...confirm my output gonna be more....(but im overwork liao...). Bosses tak ikut, lagi peaceful kami semua mkn....Khekhekhe

1) Seoul Garden
2) Bali Thai
3) Straits Kitchen
4) Cafe Vienna
5) Kintamani
6) Breeks
7) Swensens
8) Secret Recipe

mana satu eh....(Kreta racing no 1, wat number do you want?)

to choose a place for mkn pun memeningkan...

Long time no update. As usual, I will set aside a short time at work to post/update my blog. But since Friday, my pc went Kaput....Well Im thinking when its gonna be my turn.

I rarely on the pc at home, as the journey home really kills me. And once I see my hero, there goes my time. With his gembengnezz nowadays, I really have no time for other personal issues. All my time are SOLELY for him unless theres someone he wants to switch his attention to.

So many things happen and I getting more and more sicked with the surroundings. Apart from that, hub lost his hp....Arrghh!!! Whats makes me lose my mood and interest more is that, most of Khairin's videos, since he was just few days old was stored in it. I know hub was very affected by the lost but.....

Due to the lost of his hp, I didnt really enjoyed the trip we made to Singapore Zooligical Garden on Sat. for the 9 DSMB family day. It was bothering me, cos the night before the hp went missing, I kept repeating Khairin's video.....Was that a sense of lost??

To A's if you are reading this, sorry sis, if i dun look good that day....now u know the reason..

My second entry for the day......

It just struck me suddenly and I miss him soooooooo much...

Friday :

Hub suggested we spend the the night at Pasir Ris home, and I go to work from there the next day. I obliged to the idea. Hub asked me to wait for him at office, where he shall go home to get our stuffs, picked Khairin from mums place and fetched me. So he reached at about 7.30pm. Continued the journey to Pasir Ris and Khairin refused to let mil carry him when I passed him to her at the gate. Yeah let him warm up dulu.

I went in, left him at the living room and he start to crawl towards his favourite area....Where granny placed his toys. And he took his favourite toy and crawled to his granny and raised his hands. Pandai anak mama....*kiss* He broke the rules, he didnt sleep at his normal time, he slept at 9.30pm. Since sil not in town, we slept in her room, 3 beranak on one bed...I was very careful, takut terlanggar, tertentandang or terhempap Khairin.

Woke up, bathe, and got ready for work. Khairin will be taken care by hub and his family members.

Saturday :

Early part of the day was spent at work. Reached home at 1.30pm and he was sleeping after getting himself tired playing with mak chu, nyai and atok. At almost 5.30pm, hub wanted to go Parkway Parade. Went with Iza and mak. Khairin was eager and mentel....we walked around, went to banquet for dinner since Iza just came back from work. We went to Mothercare and I fall in love with gals clothings.....Iza took a few and showed me, "Kak, second one girl hor...I will have more choices to select..." (me smiling) "pray for me k....insya'allah"

Si Khairin ni plak, sibuk dok tgk baju pompuan gak, not only that kept staring at bb gal..."ewah², anak bujang nie..dah leh jaga mama lum?" hehe...

Headed home and reached at almost 9, and at 11.30 we decided to make our move. Thought nak tido jer sana, but hub didnt bring enough milk for Khairin, buat dia melalak tetgh mlm, mana nak cari.

Gedebak gedebuk, we reached home almost midnight. Put khairin in his cot, and I got the bed for myself...hehe...

Sunday :

Laze ard at home and by 3pm, I decided to go clinic due to my bad cough. Its been almost a week but it just didnt get better. Cost hub 41bucks...mahalnya...Ish!!!! I tink anitibiotic nyer pasal coz my throat was red...After that went to Causeway point. Metro having lotsa sales, but my sen got to be save...Aiseyman....next time hor...but i managed to get myself a bag....*wink*

While on our way back ibunda ku tersayang called, asking me tak kuar ke...masak apa. Since the marcaroni that I cooked for lunch still ada, I told her, we will pop by.....lagipun my dad jarang dpt jumpa Khairin, on weekdays, by the time he reached home, I already left my mums place....Pity him....

Im coughing like hell. It wasnt that bad initially but since yesterday night it just went crazy. Hub looked at me and gave me a stare, claiming that my cough was so bad. It not that I dont wanna go clinic and get MC, its just that...im soo super duper malas and apart from that they are other reasons.

And yesterday evening, I tink the neighbourhood must be alarmed by my screamed. Hahaha...all because of one cockcoach. I just have phobia with lipas and that was the caused of the scream. I was watching TV when I heard the toilet door opened and hub was done with his shower. Then I saw a glimpse of something fly passed. I was extremely sure that I saw something and kept staring towards the kitchen. Hub was busy washing his hand at the sink and yes I saw it on the wall and I screamed..."aaahhh lipas....abang....lipas...."and it was the betina, which mean can fly one. I jumped up the sofa and luckily didnt fall, mind you the floor was slippery.

The cockroach and me went to opposite direction and I quickly hid behind hub. And insisted that he go and catch that monster. And last I saw it was at the curtain. Pushing hub to go and he checked every corner sambil dia membebel, "lipas oh lipas, aku tk kacau kau, jgn lah kau kacau aku...keluarlah" but no sign of it. Then I saw it crawling and screamed again...till hub kata, " Tolonglah yang...jgn pekik gitu mcm, terperanjat abg"....peduli apa...as long as that monster lum dapat i wont stop screaming....lol

It went to the balcony and I kept pointing to hub where it went. In the end he clench his fist and threw it out of the window. I asked him u sure or not, u jgn bedek. He say betul lah, naik penyet monster tu, tak percaya cium ah tangan...Chett!! *buek*

So it was done but I still feel unsecure, I kept thinking tadi dia kat langsir tiba-tiba crawl kat different area, could it be a different one...haiya...So mana-mana hub pegi I membontot...haha, and bila kat dapur he asked me to make coffee for him, and he wanted to leave the kitchen, then I said, "alah duk sini dulu, tunggu ayg lah....takut nie.... "

Indah...indah....u so the penakut....what to do...phobia ma....kwangx3

10 Muharram 1427 Hijrah...

Since I got to know hub, on this date mil will not miss cooking bubur Asyura. But since last few years, she had gantung her periuk as, no kaki tangan to help. All of them are working and its not easy task, where this recipe uses 11 different kind of nuts....

But no matter what, I am thankful to her cos ever since the first time i tasted it, I like it very much and she didnt turn this menantu antu nyer request to masakkan during Khairins cukur rambut....So saper yg dtg tu, dpt rasa tak?

And for this rounf, she cooked it last wkend. Niat di hati nak tlg, but biasalah dengan anak, mana nak siapkan dia, siapkan diri sendiri...uwah...we reached there almost 12noon, dh siap masak pun, tinggal ngap jer khekhe

And this bubbly grandson of her...pun bukan main lagi...asik nganga jer mulut, lambat suap, dia pekik...eh nie dh melampau nie. Alamak Khairin jgn nanti kat umah cari gak tu bubur sudah...mama lum pass lagi. Kalau dh pandai ckp nanti minta nyai masakkan eh....*confirm anak antu*

K lah, there seems to be alot more that I wanna blog about, but the mood is just not there.





This is his look and his pose time tido at 9 months....

He turns 9months yesterday.....Such a big boy now. But he was not well since last Monday. It started with running nose, on wednesday night coughing and yesterday diarrhoea. Oh my poor boy.....I pity him, I make sure he consume plenty fluids to avoid him from being dehydrated.

Brought him to the clinic yesterday evening, lucky enough he wasnt cranky. Paedi precsribe him with running nose, cough and diarrhoea mixtures, he also advise us to switch to lactose free formula in the meantime till his diarrhoea subside. Get well soon son....

As he turns nine months, this is what hes capable of doing

* wave goodbye....(rapper style)
* clap his hands
* stand and walk few steps...(got to support on sofa)
* doesnt want to let go of me once im at my mums place
* hold his own bottle
* call ma....ma.....pa...pa....and bek...bek..(ish!!! nenek nyer mana)

3 more months to his first birthday....already have something in mind...gonna celebrate 3 birthday together.....*hip...hip....hurray*

Yesterday I was on compassionate leave, the demise of my cousins wife on 31January 06 bersamaan 01Muharram 1427.

I was shocked when my mum broke the news to me. I was already at mums place to send Khairin before departing for work but I decided not to report for work. Smsed my clg and we actually had to wait cos the jenazah is still at SGH for post-mortem. According to relatives theres too much complications and whole procedure ends at almost 4pm.

Jenazah dimandikan dan dikafankan.....I was crying during the procedure, even though we were not that close, but I was in great grief especially towards her baby. Yes, arwahnya just gave birth and the baby is only 4 mths old and I could really feel that the journey in life would be very struggling w/o a parent.

Samsi my dear nephew, I could see hw intelligent u were at ur mums burial, you keep ooo..aaa...to others its like telling others u are able to speak or feel ur mums existence. I pray that Allah strengthens both ur dad and your heart. Life has to go on.

Al-fateha buat Allahyarhamha, Titik Marlina Binte Md Din. Semoga rohnya di tempatkan di kalangan orang2 yg beriman....

The whole episode left a great impact on me....When I saw hub, I looked at him and hugged him tightly, we had Khairin together with us and we must treasure all that we have now....we never know wat awaits us......